14 Jan 2006

今晚有少少無聊, 於是打開個日記睇睇, 嘩, 原來我咁耐無打過日記架喇。

睇來係 office 調左位之後的日子都唔係咁好過呀下。成日都會好近咁有個人可以睇到我係度做乜野。於是番到屋企之後就已經無晒心機再打日記。

不過我都係要真係無聊到極, 或者係有感而發的時候先會想打日記。好似衣家咁, 我有機可以打, 有覺可以訓, 不知幾唔想打。

所以, bye bye la~

28 Dec 2005

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year everyone.

I have witnessed the crazy crowdedness of TST in Christmas Eve’s night. People are crowded together and extends from TST to Jordan and beyond. That’s the spectacular scene that you can easily find in Hong Kong but not the other places. Yo man I love Hong Kong (to some extent).

Christmas is finally over. New year is coming. And in between, many of us has to work 3 days.

Boring. After this long holiday, I really just don’t want to start working.
I wish the holiday never ends.

I wish the holiday never ends.

Countdown to New Year's Eve: 3 days only!!

15 Dec 2005

Just to remind every of my friends:

我仲識打中文的
只係我公司打中文的話太張揚
所以打英文…感覺上無咁張揚
雖然呢段中文我都係係公司裡面打的…
因為見到…大家因為我被逼打英文日記之後
讀者人數暴跌

我知我仲有好多要學好英文地方
同埋英文日記真係令人唔好受
但請多多包咸, 越包越咸…

多謝收看~~

15 Dec 2005

Can anyone tell me what the hell are the Korean farmers are thinking?!

They are experienced, they are organized, they are structure, they planned, they trained, they rehearsed and of course, they prepared.

This is no demonstration, I can definitely tell you. Their actions proved far beyond demonstration are not their ultimate want. I really do not understand why do the police conform to that primal violence that could only be out of some uneducated rioters. They don’t just want to tell, they want to catch attention and demonstrate their power.

Just as the editorials of so many newspaper these two days commented, things had gone too far from just being protesting. They are showing to the world that they have the power to bulldoze the way. And they have the will to do so.

I have thought of two things afterwards, one is about the police the other is about the farmers.

For the police.

If they keep on the absolute defence strategy, they will be able to keep the farmers still away from the venue. So far, the farmers can’t do much except grabbing some shields out in the chaos. On the police side, however, they will be gaining sympathy from the public because they are trying to be very “gentle” towards the protestors. However, they are not gaining respect because they are relatively coward then the imaginative situation that police should be “suppressing” the protestors instead of “fending” them off. Both ways will earn some reputation, though.

For the farmers.

There is no sign of easing or retreating. Escalating tension and violence is expected. When the agricultural products issues discussed in the convention do not provide a satisfactory consensus, which VERY probably won’t, he farmers will probably throw everything they have to the police. By everything it could mean physical objects, human resources, tactics…I mean, to civilians of Hong Kong, it’s better to stay home that day.

What I thought for the farmers are not mainly about this. What I thought is: they are so angry, they are so outrageous, they will give their lives to demonstrate to the people.

What for? What is their driving force?

Maybe the answer is simply “because their livelihood is really gravely endangered” and “because Korean cultures are very extreme and resolute”. But I’m more 陰謀論者. I think someone is behind, stirring up their emotions further in order to use their forces and their united spirits against the WTO. Well you might think I’m crazy to think so, but there could be a high chance that this is true. You see, how many Korean farmers are well-educated actually? It’s always easier to coax illiterate into upheaval than those intelligent ones. And mind you, people who are against WTO are not just Korean farmers. They come from all over the world, including western countries. What’s better than having a large team of “strike force” with unlimited courage and energy and the willingness to die for? And is free? And is easily stirred? And is in large amount? And is easily persuaded?

Man, these orcs are even better than those produced by Mordor!

Countdown to Christmas’ Eve: 9 Days only!!!
Countdown to 2006 New Year’s Eve: 16 days (close, too)

9 Dec 2005

Well, I’m finally graduated from the university. And I’m a man now not a boy anymore, though I totally don’t think so.

You know what? Sometimes you dream of something to happen in your life, and you still fancy it even though you’re getting older. And one day when your dream comes true, you don’t feel like happy as if the TV commercials do. You just go through it, nothing special.

This is what my university ceremony gives me feels like.

Can’t imagine everyone is being so calm, including me. This is a monumental moment for our families, for the one who loves us. Yet, we are very unimpressed by the moment. Part of it might be because we feel like we are almost obliged and certain to be graduated than with our hard-work and luck.

Maybe because there are too much resource around for us to use. Take a look around. We are blessed with so much funding into the education system that makes studying in the university possible. And the strange system of it guarantee almost everyone to be graduated. How can people feel gratified if everything around them is taken for granted?

If it wasn’t that my parents and relatives were so overjoyed for my graduation, I would have never give a thought on this. Friends around me are just as calm (or emotionless) as I do. We were very passionate and excited this April, when we first try to put on our gowns and take photos with friends and hose everyone else with champagne. We cherished the moment, just for fun.

The meaning behind is loosing. And I can’t see the coming generation will tighten it up.

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When will my passion come back?
When did I turn to be so apathetic?

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Countdown to Christmas’ Eve: 13 Days (entering the fortnight…Prepare yourselves!)
Countdown to New Year’s Eve: 20 Days

2 Dec 2005

Almost everyone knows me aware of my almost-addictive attitude towards video games and computer games. However, I’m not as everyone thought as to be having a lot of “investments” into those things. Actually, I didn’t bought any new game consoles ever since Playstation one.

You might wonder why I didn’t buy PS2. Well, I can’t think of a reason too. When I was in secondary school, I know that I don’t have the money to buy it. My parents don’t like me to do so, too. They think that I’m too addicted to such things that hampered my social developments, my time spending with family, and also to my health. The most important reason is my brother. When my bad habits towards video games are magnified to a level of several times, that’s him. And worse, he isn’t performing too well in school. To my parents, academic performance is a prerequisite for anything. I was lucky to be having better results, so I have more bargaining power towards my parents and have less discipline. My brother, on the other hand, ain’t so lucky.

I guess it’s more family matter than myself, to a certain extent.

Moreover, that time I was living in the hostel in university. I seldom go back home. I just love the hostel, everything it has. Within there, I don’t need PS2 to make myself happy. I have plenty of things to do in university, and they are giving me satisfaction and happiness far more than a game machine. Those were the days that I was feeling I’m doing something meaningful in my life.

Now, the days of “don’t know what I’m doing” is back again, just like those days when I was in secondary school and don’t know what I’m doing everyday. There is no excitement and there is no fulfilment. You feel like live every day yet you also feel dying every day. Playing computer games become so attractive and so escape out of the reality. I can’t help myself from stop playing.

Recently I would like to play PS2 again. Although I know that it’s very late as a follower to buy this…but hey, there’s going to be a lot of games out there. And now I finally have the money to buy this piece of thing that I wanted for such a long time already.

I know there are going to be a lot of new things coming out of the market. But you know, new things are always the most expensive. Just like few years ago when PS2 was introduced to the market, everyone is crazily going after it. Now everyone is still crazily playing it, but not to the extent that will be so expensive. And technology advanced to a level that using no-disc can also play it.

The new things that I know would be Xbox 360, which is out in the marketing already. The other two things will be Revolution, by Nintendo (poor, they were once the king in the market when Super Famicom was still the main stream). I’ve watched the promotion video clip and found their technology really kind of amazes me. Wow, games are now no longer games. I wish I were born later, so that I can have more chance to play those new things…

The other one, of course, is PS3. I’m not sure what time will it be released. But since the fame and popularity of PS2 is so damn overwhelming…ya, you know.

Just when I was outside for lunch, I saw on some video games magazine telling that the Xbox 360 is having some poor quality consoles. This greatly ruins the image of the newly marketed game console. Not difficult to think of, so as the price of it. It was once speculated to rocketing high prices but now, according to the magazine, can be bought at around 1200. My goodness, that is even cheaper than PS2 to ANY extent.

I think I will buy PS2 very soon. But I hope I can find a second-hand one, because it will take some time before I feel safe to buy the next generation one, either Revolution or Xbox360 (good quality version) or PS3.

Anyone who has second-hand PS2? Or a cheap new one?

Countdown to Christmas’s Eve: 22 Days
Countdown to New Year’s Eve: 29 Days

We’re in the DECEMBER now~~~YEAH

29 Nov 2005

It wasn’t before long that I found myself very sleepy this afternoon. I didn’t have enough sleep these few days. But then I think of something: is that because I have no pressure from the work or is that simply not enough sleep makes me feel so sleepy?

I seem to remember had asked my friends about this one: are you more easily prone to sleepiness when you’re having a lot of work and exhausted, or when you are having unimportant things to be done and feeling useless?

Of me, when I’m really under great pressure of deadlines, I can suppress my sleepiness. This is the experience that I had when I was in university. Well, let’s put it in this way, I had most of my experience from the past three years of university more than all the other years in my life. Diversity really makes you know yourself more. And diversity could be best found in my university. (yeh, MY university only, ho ho ho…).

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These days, I can feel that myself is getting much and much lazier. I just don’t want to work hard. When jobs are given to me, I will finish it as quick as I can. But when those ad hoc jobs are finished, I don’t want to move again. I’m not motivated enough, neither internally nor externally.

I become more selfish too. I just want more for myself and less for the others. I just think of myself first, and not the others, even if those people are precious to me.

I become less willing to change, or to give up things. I just want things the way they are now, unless it’s really very bad. I’m so reluctant to change and so used to comfort.

I’m decaying. In three aspects I am decaying. One is physically, second is mentally, and the third, morally.

What happened?

25 Nov 2005

Back a few months ago, while the summer heat is still high and the sun is still the beautiful mid-summer firewall, there was a nice young boy who goes to swimming almost everyday. He wasn’t really going to swim like fish, though, he’s just enjoying the water, enjoy the freedom of movement (without others’ laughing), enjoy the summer’s heat, enjoy the big bright sunshine, enjoying the tanned and beautiful crowd, enjoying the summer, enjoying the atmosphere. He was in good shape. I mean, eh, he was in a much better shape. And he didn’t care whether he looks good or he looks not good enough.

Then the young man found a job and started working 10-7 each day. Because of the extraordinarily silent and motionless environment in the office that he’s working in, and because his boss is just sitting very NEXT to him, he feels great pressure every time he tries to walk away to do at least some stretching. The first two week of working, to him, is a total torture. Every muscle in his body is yelling and complaining from actively moving everyday to total sedentary, total handicapped on the chair, in front of the monitor, everyday.

But human are surprising creates. They can easily adapt to different environment. After one and a half month, the young man is used to the severely handicapped-style, stick-you-ass-to-the-chair-all-day working style. Slowly, his body is disintegrating from inside. And he can do nothing over it because there are many watchful eyes in the office. He knows he’s decaying, with a visible speed and a tangible touch.

Two month’s over, the young man had decayed so fast to a rate that he can’t even walk too fast. His legs are totally crippled (metaphorically speaking, of course). His arms are so weak that even he’s leaning his head upon his arms, his arms are too tired to support them, shown by shaking and shaking. His waist, however, keeps bulging and bulging. That is the part where the body seats and there is the part where the excess energy is stored. That is also the part where his body moves least, if any.

The young man is very sad. He can do nothing over it while overlooking himself getting worse. He can’t swim under the sun because he never sees it in weekdays. He can’t jog because after dinner it’s too tired already. He can’t move his body because that shows he’s too impatient on his job, which is way too visible for his boss 1m away from him. He’s bored, he’s tired, and he’s dissatisfied. He knows this happens to nearly every job in the world, and that’s what makes him even more dejected.

Before, he can put on pants with 32inch waist…….then he has to wear 33…..then 34……and coming 35….just within 3 months!!!!

Question: how many days can his meat and fat feed another person if he’s being hunted down in a no-man island?

Answer: at least a year…I guess.

Sigh…

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Tell you something…

…it’s only one month from the Christmas~~~~Yeh~~~~~

Countdown to Christmas’s Eve: 28 Days
Countdown to New Year’s Eve: 36 Days

15 Nov 2005

Very tired. I'm just too tired to work today.

Last night my mother need someone to help her to input quite a lot of data into her company's system in order to generate some presentations for meeting the deadline today. And that was already early in the morning (I would say it's early in the morning rather than late at night, you know). I just don't want to continue when she keeps on pulling me from sleeping and help her finish with all the input.

During daytime I have my whole day facing the computer doing everything with "data" already. And now when I'm back at home, late at night, my mom would keep on pressing me to do something that I don't want to do. That's not the main point.

She keeps on depriving my sleeping time, and that's the main point out of all!

I could hardly make it to the office today if I'm not having several alarms at a time. I hate the feeling of doing something so monotonous with such sleepiness. I'm ok to deal with sleepiness when things are neeeded to be done, such things happened often during university. But not when I'm doing something that...seemingly can be done at anytime with any pace, I'm prone to inefficiency then. Everyone does, I reckon.

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This two days we are having a management level meeting in our office. Most of the management from the Asian offices are coming to HK to have their meetings. My boss had meeting with them yesterday as well. It was a very quiet day. It's the same situation here today, except that my boss left silent for his business trip again. And again, he didn't tell me anything beforehand.

After the lunch, the managers all come back to the office and start to work. Then the worst thing happened: someone smokes in the office! The smell is SOOO damn offensive that I feel that I can't breathe! There wasn't much fresh air in this office for all of us already. There's really no point in aggravating the situation to suffocate of all us! My god! I have to go outside just for a deep breathe of some not-so-fresh-but-better-than-smoke-polluted air.

I'm feeling very, very sleepy now...anyone know what's the cure for hypoxia? help....

Countdown to Christmas' Eve: 38 Days
Countdown to New Year's Eve: 45 Days

10 Nov 2005

Flu of the century

I can't remember when did that happened already.

It was a fierce epidemic raging through the territory;
People keep dying, doctors in desperate doubt that solution nor source could be found;
The public is in great panic. Everyone felt their lives threatened when even the authorities and the professionals, whom they seek advice and help during situations, are helpless themselves this time;
The media blackens everything and threats everyone;
People tried to take their "hygenic precaution sense" to unbelievably high level, almost paranoid;
The city is so helpless that the only way to do was simply submerge everything into chlorine solutions, in a proportion of 1:99. Until the plague is gone, they will finally surface.

That was a few years ago already, though I don't remember which year was that exactly. It seems to be when I was Year 1 in CU.

That was 2003, I guess. That was SARS, I'm sure.

Fear and sadness that once sieged the poor little city silently slipped away as time goes on. HK people are always good at forgetting.

2 years later, we're now facing another epidemic that will soon arrive. This time, everyone else on Earth are shaken and alert, but not HK people. Vaccinations and tensions are together injected to the public in the foreign lands. What about us? Yes we had some measures now, as far as we can tell.

But where is the "excessively paranoid hygenic precaution" sense that the public had when they faced SARS? I don't see anyone shocked, shaken, or even moved here. The bird flu, which is imminent and perhaps more deadly than SARS, is striking from different directions now (refer yourself to the news).

Even National Geographic and Discovery Channel are describing this wave of bird flu as "Flu of the Century"...

Geeeeeeeeee...what happened?



Christmas Eve's Countdown: 43 Days
New Year's Eve Coutndown: 50 Days

8 Nov 2005

This is definitely the sick week.

First I had the flu. Every time the city has the epidemic flu that rages around the region I must be one of the pioneers for it. Last time I shared the flu that spreads all over Hong Kong with all other patients is around March something. That time the loss is tragic, I can say. I missed my chance of going to Thailand together with my family, not to say the loss of money…though there was insurance claim.

Then I had the gastritis. Well of course I don’t know this English name until I check the doctor’s certificate. It doesn’t hurt me much. But feeling the pain at 4 in the morning is definitely torturing. I just can’t work the next day without sleeping all night.

Now I’m back to work. There’s something about the work that I don’t like now.

So many entries in the database are duplicates. Some are easier to identify, some are just as complicated and sophisticated as the authentic one. You can never distinguish which one is an extra one that should be removed. Sometimes the duplicates can even appear in the Operations System, Invoicing system, or even the accounting system! My goodness. How can the brokers use some poorly-spelled names on invoices? If any legal arguments are to be involved, we are definitely going to be on the disadvantaged side.

Then of course anyone with some sense will try to seek help. So do I. I sent mails to various brokers for various entries to ask for their help. The result? 95% of them do NOT answer my mails. Our intricate system allows us to see who had read your mail. And 100% of them had read my mails already, as I can see from the system. That means, they read the mail and do not reply, even if it’s a personal, internal mail to them.

Christ’s sake…what’s happening? Am I really such a disposable man that doesn’t deserve some attention or respect? I know I’m doing something that seems very meaningless but that’s not so. At least, I believed not so. For just answering me “yes A is the real one B is useless entry” you can help the poor little kid struggling with the database everyday.

Why are you guys just so apathetic? Please.



Christmas' Eve Countdown: 45 Days
New Year's Eve Countdown: 52 Days

1 Nov 2005

I guess if I wasn't having the "aftermath" of a serious flu, I must had been out to LKF to join the Halloween party last night. You know, these things are just so important to me. I mean festivals. Usually I will enjoy them and I expect them. I like people and crowds. I like atmosphere. I like yelling and cheering and laughing among the crowds. Of course I also like having a drink and a deep chat with my friends in a decent cafe or the seaside. But festivals just aren't going to get away from me.

Anyway, I can join again next year. Full attention shift to Christmas please, the most important festival of all.

Countdown to Christmas' Eve: 52 days
Countdown to New Year's Eve: 59 days

26 Oct 2005

Almost everyone around me knows that I like to play computer games. However, different from what most of my friends would expect, I'm not such a person so into computers stuff. I mean, of course I like surfing the internet and ICQ and what else. But I’m just not those kind of person that like to study what is BIOS, what is backdoor, what is firewall, what is CISCO...blah blah blah. And so I didn’t' develop the ability to handle the computer when there is something wrong.

And when the computer goes wrong, it's just so similar to the sky fall. And I'm not exaggerating it, you know. Those that had their computers something wrong before will feel as frustrated as I am as well if there is. We are so relied on such things already.

Then I developed the habit of leaving the computer's problem until someone will voluntarily help me or the problem will be solved by itself but just not me to open the casing and remove the darn parts or to reinstall the whole damn windows again. Time goes on and I guess I have developed a kind of "phobia" towards downed computers.

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Recently I have took out the game of Red Alert 2 to play AGAIN. Well I admit that I really LOVE the game and I have nothing to play too. I would really like to buy some computer games but those pirated ones are so rarely seen and the quality is so low now. I've heard pirated CDs the quality so low that concert VCDs are actually AV porn and games CD-ROM are actually cartoons record from TV. My goodness. How on Earth could I trust them anymore.

Speaking of the Red Alert 2, It's really fun and diverse. For so many times i played the game there is almost never the same response from the computer.

So because of the admiration to the game, I search for the game when I was working with the Wikipedia to search port names. To my shock, there is a story behind:

Westwood studios had been making good games. Their greatest success was the launch of Command and Conquer, which is groundbreaking for the Real Time Strategy games (RTS).

Another game that I've bought and played is the "Lands or Lore 2: Guardian of Destiny". 4CDs the game has. The game is so complicated, the maps are so large that I've tried more than 5 times but never able to make it to the last piece of CD.

The success of smaller companies are always ending happily. Westwood Studios was soon being "purchased" by Electronic Arts games, which is the famous EA Games. Something, then, happened which makes the old staffs in WW Studios unhappy. They left in a bulk and set up another Studio called Petrogylph (something like that). Petroglyph mainly consists of old WW staffs. Those that unwilling to stay in EA games later also joined the Petroglyph.

Maybe this is the reason why the third C&C game (Generals) is so lousy. The Elites are all gone.

So what's the exciting news? Petroglyph is undergoing a project (of course an RTS game, it's their game) which is using their skills and experience to blend with the Force. Yes, they are making the RTS game for Star Wars! Wow. Although I'm not as exciting as playing the similar game for Lord of the Rings, I am, anyhow.

24 Oct 2005

Another new week start. This should be the last week of the month already. I have been waiting for this week for such a long time already. And the only reason for this is money.

Today my working morale fell to lowest. I feel like I'm so sick of everything around here. I don't want to sit here, nor do I want to sit in another office. I don't think I will feel calm too if I lie on my own bed. It's just doesn't feel right. I just want escape from everything. It's just not right. I just feel pressures all around.

I don't want to do such boring work. But deep in my heart I actually appreciate it. Well, think of this: I can go to work at 10 (deadline). The office is just in Causeway Bay, the favourite place for me in HK. And it's very close to my home too.

I can visit the Pet Street every lunch time because it's in the Causeway Bay and I have 1.5 hours of lunch time. Just looking at those cutie and lovely puppies and kitties could really cheer me up for the rest of the day. I have plenty of food to choose in Causeway Bay. I have a Central Library close to my office where I can go read some books during lunch time. I can go for a stroll in the Victoria Park. I can go to the games arcade in the World Trade Centre. I can go to the Cat Cafe to have lunch and play with the cats. I can choose to eat expensive meals or just buy breads from bakeries or supermarkets. I can window shopping during lunch time (although I seldom do).

In the office, it's kind of boring. But actually it just depends on whether I want to work or not. That's because my boss isn't checking me from time to time, but I have my duties to do. Since no one is really keep checking, I do so the same amount of work within one day or spread it over a whole week...no one knows. You can say it's so free or you can say it's so meaningless. Yes, my seat is facing the wall / entrance while the rest of us can face the windows and admire the skyline of Causeway Bay and some even the Victoria Harbour. And yes, everyone else can see what's my monitor is showing so I can't play games in the computer (Ouch! That hurts!). But, Hey! This job got nothing to do anyway. This diary means that I am at least so free to do other things instead of working. Many of the others outside are still working hard everyday just to contribute all their time in working. To them, I'm living in a slice of heaven on Earth.

So what am I feeling not contended with? I keep asking myself this question this morning. Everything seems fine here. Am I really adventurous to get some excitement from another kind of job or am I just being too picky that nothing on the world will satisfy me?

Gee, what the hell am I up to actually.

One thing I'm for sure: If I cannot figure this out ASAP would not have the determination to find another job and leave this one. And always "time and tide waits for no man".

Viola had introduced me the Jardine's MT programme. I thank her for this but I'm kinda sure I'm not as eloquent and able as those guys / girls. But if I can really be one of them that would really be a great leap forward in my life.

Perhaps if Jardine's recruiting clowns...I might have a better chance. Just not with data again, please. Suit yourself, not me.

p.s. It's past lunch time already. I came back from a walk in the pet street with those lovely puppies and some leisurely reading in a book store. The world is as beautiful as before provided that I don't fell asleep on my own desk. My only wish now it to lie naked under the burning hot sun on a beautiful tropical beach alone...eh, heck with it.

21 Oct 2005

老實講呀
我真係唔多鐘意用英文打日記架

今晚開番個日記出來看, 一眼望落去, 嘩, 一大「咋」雞腸, 連我自己都已經唔想讀落去。

但, 無辦法~~~~

21 Oct 2005

Have you ever imagine why are you always so sleepy when you are working? Maybe it's because there is not enough oxygen inside. Just s few weeks back we have heard of a research's results showing that most of the Hong Kong air conditioning is too cold. Actually most of the places in Hong Kong is having a air conditioning too cold problem. even in restaurants, shopping malls, buses (especially buses, they are fridges on wheels).

why is everyone talking about being more "civilized", talking about civil education in the fields of environmental protection, but on the other hand we are doing something that we could have avoided in damging the fragile environment?

i don't know the exact reason for each unit for wasting the energy and creating more CO2, but i guess i am able to summarize / guess some of the reasons out.

the first one i think is because chinese lack the civil heart. we mean civil heart is considering others more than ourselves in a sensible way. the very moment diners walk into the restaurant from the steamy hot street must be expecting a chilling old drink together with a comfortable cool air condition in the restaurant. if this requirement isn't satisfactorily met, either the diner silently complains or just explicitly leave. this is not acceptable to the restaurant, right?

working in office is really damn boring. if the staff is getting dozy during the afternoon then no one will be working...this one will not be tolerated too, right?

in people walk into the shopping mall and discovered that it is as hot as outside, they definitely won't stay any longer. business is flowing to locations with lower temperatures. not good again, right?

i understand the very difficult in hong kong in applying the "fresh air" policy for the premises because no matter which place in hong kong there is no fresh air, especially in the central areas. everyone walking into the area is acting like moving filters help cleaning the city's air...at the cost of their own lives, of course.

but at least, do something about air circulation. trapped air in closed system does nothing good to no one.

no, i'm typing this not because i'm sleepy right now. and, no, it's also not because of i really want to leave the office now. and, of course no, i don't think the air is thick and dirty in the office now. and, i said no already, i don't need a fan to circulate the air in the office although it's cold enough already.

think i'd better bring compressed oxygen canisters (those for scuba diving) next week to work...my goodness...i'm going to faint...@_@

20 Oct 2005

Good morning everyone. This is the everyday direct report from the very busy office, reported by the staff that has almost nothing to do but seeing the others being very busy.

On the headlines:
The coffee machine's water tank ran out of water. People fed in panic. Tommy came and filled the tank. After hours of struggling he finally saved the whole office by refilling the coffee machine. There is no injury in this accident.

Later on, the water dispenser ran out of water too. The government had issued red alert to the public. Supermarkets are loaded with people trying to stock water at their home. Tommy came and appeased the crowd by using his amazing strength to refill the 18L water bottle. Peace and order is again restored.

In the washroom, the boss and Tommy met and had a meeting for 30 seconds. Both declared a closer co-operation in the future. The two leaders agreed to dispose their own WMD, also known as Weapon of Mass Destruction e.g. bad data.

The pantry is running out of teabags. Jasmine and Green tea today had their stock keep falling since the market started. Market speculation is that the share price of Po Lei and red tea is going to rise.

The research on the forth quarter Price Index show a slight rise of 0.5% with a relative increase in bakery products for 10%. It is believed to be caused by the introduction of the Pumpkin and Ham pastry from the Maxim's which is too delicious and inexpensive that Tommy had been purchasing in bulk every morning, pushing the price to a new high. Experts believe that the phenomenon will sustain for a period of time.

The business war of Wrigley's Airwaves (ginger orange flavour) and Wrigley's Doublemint is rising. While Tommy favours the clear flavour freshness of the mint, he also regards the ginger orange as refreshing and revitalizing. Recent studies show that the struggle on chewing gums will not diminished in the near future. Market is observing according to the slack price on the two chewing gums.

The weather:
The thick boredom hanging over Causeway Bay is expected to be staying for the coming few days, or at least as long as someone still working in a stupid post. Some drizzle of excitement will occasionally come during 1230 to 1400, cause unknown. Continuing boredom extends to the rest of the week. The Mind Blankness Index is high to dangerously high, government warns on public health, suggesting staying home instead of working on meaningless duties.

The Mark Six numbers are: 4,14,24,,44,94,104, and the extra number is 0.

And that's the news for this morning. Have a nice (and meaningful) day. Goodbye.

19 Oct 2005

Unbelievable.

The time now is 1449 in the afternoon. My stomach is filed with the lunch that doesn’t worth the price itself. Bloods are keep flowing to the stomach to help with the arduous digestion below the ever-growing belly of mine. My brain is starting to feel dehydrogenated. While at this moment I really need some excitement and at least some noise around me, the office is so damn quiet that you will complain the A/C outlet being too noisy. Even typing is too noisy, even there is only two people typing at the moment. Damn. I’m gonna sleep very soon.

I’ve never seen the office so empty in the middle of the day. Now my boss is on annual leave. The big boss is out in France having his training (never heard that a managing director needs “training” too). The admin manager is still on her maternity leave. The secretary is now outside nowhere to be found (guess she’s down there in the HR Dept).

S&P Dept originally has 4 persons. Now 2 left for China to deal business. One left for nowhere…yes, everyone here can disappear in nowhere. The remaining one is a newcomer, and he’s really the only one remained now can see what I’m doing in my computer. If ever he’s going to washroom, I’m really gonna play games on the internet…or at least, solitaire in windows.

The Dry Dept originally has 2 persons. One left for “hanging out” with the client and having expensive lunch with tem in Pacific Place (my goodness). 1 of the 2 dry brokers left. 1 of the 2 accountant ladies left. 1 of the 2 secretaries left. 3 of 3 of the bosses left.

The office is filled with silent joy.

And no matter how many people left in the office. There is only one man that will make the difference (to me).

My boss.

Of course this is very easy to think of, especially when you know that I am just sitting NEXT to my boss everyday. Yes, close and next to. We have no rooms in this office. Everyone is under the same roof (metaphorically and descriptively). So there are basically no secrets or gossips at all around here (and that’s why it’s so damn quiet). Whenever my boss just turn his neck for a little bit, he can see what I’m doing on my screen. He can see everything I am doing even with just a glimpse. Or maybe not even a glimpse, maybe he can sense it with the corner of his eyes.

Now that’s scary, right?

But the good news is, my boss don’t really care what I’m doing. He seldom checks my progress, if any. In fact, he didn’t lay down any rules on how or what to do with the database that I’m handling. There is always the good side and the down side. You can say you are so free to do whatever you like, or you can say you are so ignored that you almost question yourself are you really an employee.

A real DIY job, anyone?

18 Oct 2005

Last night my parents had ask me about my job again. They asked me whether you would really like to quit or not. I’m not so sure yet. I don’t think I will have any future with this job. And it’s boring anyway. But I don’t know where can I go if I quit this job. I don’t think there is any one else who will be paying me a satisfactory salary for a job that doesn’t really so stressful. This job is lazy and has nothing to do. And I’m receiving a small amount of salary. It’s really like of a retired life in here. Though my boss is just sitting next to me and can easily see what I’m doing, I still feel this job quite good. At least, I’m typing my diary now.

But leaving this job…the feeling is like leaving a greenhouse when you have been in there for quite a long time. Therefore I don’t know how to deal with the feelings that I am going to have when I leave here.

My father suggest me to go study a part-time master degree, taking the advantage of this very free and boring job. I know, but I’ve never thought of what else to study. I felt like I had wasted 3 years of time in GRM already. I really don’t want to make another wrong decision anymore.

Sometimes I ask myself. Did I really wasted that 3 years of time? Will I really be much more happy when I am in another study? Will I be more happy in another busy job? Will I be really more happy when I’m not working in a job that fits my character?

Wow.

Thousands of questions.

I recall my dad saying something to my mom, saying that she “won’t buy Mark Six that doesn’t win”

Explain next time.

14 Oct 2005

As some of you might aware, this diary is typed in English (of course, I don’t treat you all as nuts, unlike how my mom treats me). This reason is that this diary is being typed in my office while it’s still office hour and I should be working in front of the computer instead of typing diary. But today something never happened before really happened now. My boss left me and had his (believed to be) sick leave.

Not difficult to guess because his face doesn’t look good at all during the whole morning and it’s not difficult to guess that he’s already in sick. I just didn’t expect he will leave suddenly during the lunch without even telling me! His own “horse son” directly under him! Eh…I really don’t know what he’s thinking.

Anyway, here I am, in the office, in the afternoon, having nothing to do. I wish I can type Chinese diary but you know, I’m working in a Danish company. Everything here appears on the screen in every computers are all English. It’s really far too easy to see that you are doing something unrelated to the company when there is Chinese on your screen.

Not even write. Everything that I have written so far are also in English. So I can’t do much in Chinese. And even though my boss had left already there are still many people around that can see what is appearing on my screen. So above this diary is actually a decoy of a piece of e-mail that I used to send everyday to all the offices in our company (some kind of stupid announcement). To really avoid the others from seeing, I have to lower the size of display from 100% of the real document to 88%, which both Viola and I think it’s a very good zooming proportion for doing documents.