30 Apr 2006

又係十四日的大限
我又要來寫日記
showhappy 真係.... so troublesome

14 Apr 2006

Wilson 話睇完我的食評 (其實都唔算「評」﹐只能話係「記」﹐但你又唔會講「食記」咁鬼攪笑) 佢自己都打左一篇俾我睇番。我睇完再順便 scroll 落去睇佢無叫我睇的其他日記。發現到原來我地真係兩個好唔同的人

我比佢更無上進心﹐但我亦因此比佢更知足常樂 (或者「以為自己係」知足)
我比佢更小氣﹐因為我聽見佢上司咁樣鬧佢﹐換著係我﹐一定唔理後果咁死撐落去﹐我唔會明明自己係對的都俾人半屈半羞辱咁話錯﹐當然﹐根據辦公室十誡﹐咁樣等於「以後都無好日子過」。

大家都要長進﹐大家都要知足﹐大家都要成熟。

9 Apr 2006

尋晚食左南山谷。Knutsford 個間。個經歷唔係幾開心﹐所以唔係太想 recommend 大家去。

話說南山谷係食 Korean cuisine 的。咁我地一去到坐低見到佢個裝修都幾好﹐似模似樣咁。然後一坐底就送兩碟仔的泡菜來。咁我地當然就係先食為快喇。咁其實韓國餐廳﹐無論係邊度呀﹐都應該係可以任食泡菜架嘛﹐就算係唔可以大碟大碟咁來﹐你一少碟咁來都得呀。你咁細碟泡菜仔都仲居然可以話「再叫要收十蚊一份架喎」﹐我少你呀？衣家叫你俾泡菜我咋唔係叫你俾主菜我呀大姑。裝修得間舖面咁好睇﹐仲擺自己係 Knutsford 樓下﹐都竟然做得自己咁小家﹐今時今日咁樣唔得架喇﹐咪話我唔教精你喇~~

其實你咁做﹐唔單止令到d 客佢得你好小家﹐好度縮﹐仲會令d 客覺得你時時都算死草﹐呢間野d 用料都唔慌好咁樣。

咁咪即係得不償失囉﹐死蠢。

好喇﹐我忍你一獲。到上茶來﹐原來係韓國人喜愛的麥茶。我就唔太喜愛﹐於是我就想叫佢俾杯水我飲算啦﹐都係唔飲茶。

「唔好意思呀我地呢度無水﹐Bonaqua 細枝裝要十蚊一支」

仲有無得乞人憎d添？

後來我地叫左六樣野左右﹐位位二百。勁唔想俾。野食唔差﹐但味精重。但係點都救唔番個 image….實在係唔 Gur。

南山谷
尖沙咀諾士佛台底﹐金巴利道﹐Quiksilver 對面﹐麻布茶房 and Da Dolce 隔離。
地址就俾左你﹐試唔試就 at your own discretion…

29 Mar 2006

乞人憎到死
又話要刪除我個日記又乜野又乜野咁
妖

終於打完金滿庭美食之旅, 三月廿六

26 Mar 2006 金滿庭

「車品品」變「金滿庭」
傳說中﹐係大角咀的一個 isolated area 裡面 ( 其實即係奧運站個頭, 你話係唔係 isolated) ﹐有一間叫做車品品的車仔面小店。傳說中的呢一間小店係有好好的車仔面…….點好食法就唔知道喇。於是我一路都心郁郁想去試下﹐終於俾我約到同我一樣咁為食的肥仔正同我一齊去「尋花問柳」。
基本上我係完全唔識得去的。我所見到呢﹐呢個地方同旺角油麻地好近﹐但係中間就有一大片空地係你穿唔過的。留下的只有南面的一個入口同北面近奧海城的一個入口….聽起上來簡直就係好似以前的城咁﹐只有南北城門可進。令人期待。
咁於是我地就慢慢又奧海城爬過去咩富花園﹐中途超大風﹐「北門」的風管效應令本來已經好勁的強烈季候風訊號更強烈﹐吹到我頭到暈埋。但就係呢d 咁劇情化的現象先會令我更加 very 期待。

係我地搵左一大輪之後﹐終於搵到呢間咁細咁隱蔽的小店喇！

無開門。

我呆左。好 Down. 點解會唔開門。點解星期日晚的黃金時間都竟然可以唔開門？我好失望。肥仔正話可能執左笠喇。我話無咁快架喎….

點解？因為收到風話呢間咁正的車仔面將會係月尾就結業。消息一傳左出去﹐openrice 的食友統統都牙痛咁聲。由於人人都想去趕食「最後的晚餐」﹐網上的留言及食評數目突然直線上升﹐收到的回音都係一致讚賞令人回味。距離月尾越近﹐大家就越急急腳咁趕去食。你話我見到咁的情形﹐點解夠唔去一去呢？唉﹐點知就踫著佢唔知無開定執左。

咁的失望情況之下我唯有走人。再經「北門」走﹐呢個時候急勁的寒風唔再令我覺得「有氣氛」﹐只有冷的感覺。

咁唯有番入去奧海城喇。奧海城裡面﹐仲有邊間出名得過金滿庭？雖然佢係有好多人係度等緊位﹐但係既然我食唔到車品品﹐我唔想求其搵間 Pizza Hut 安慰下自己算數！I’m in the mood for food! Quality Food! And I mean it!

我等金滿庭。死都等。到最後我等左痛苦的一個鐘。足足一個鐘。餓到我人都扁。一個鐘過去之後我終於有位﹐簡直係感激流涕。

坐低之後﹐發生左一件小事﹐都幾無聊的。如果大家知道乜野係麥兜的「魚蛋粗呀﹐無魚蛋呀; 墨丸粗呀﹐無粗面呀」的故事的話﹐你一定知我以下落來想講乜野。

「先生想飲咩茶？」
「um…飲咩茶…香片呀」
「無香片呀」
「咁水仙啦」
「無水仙呀」
「咁壽眉啦」
「無壽眉呀」
「咁….咁….咁普洱囉」
「無普洱呀」
「醒你個勢…..(已經餓到暈到阿溥﹐肚餓的時候最差脾氣)…咁~你~有~乜~野~茶~呀~~~~~(每個字拖足一秒來講)」
佢打開個 menu﹐裡面有五六種茶﹐有咩人蔘烏龍﹐龍井﹐碧螺春等等。激死我﹐扮 high-class 呀嘛？我 high 唔起咩家陣？大我？車！我要碧螺春！…..巴之閉…..趁我咁唔好老脾的時候仲要來谷爆我個「潑婦-o-meter」？！作死呀你…..

好 L 肚餓﹐打開個 menu 見野就叫﹐好明顯因為我地已經唔睇錢﹐又唔理時間已經係九點半﹐更加唔理食唔食得晒﹐只求忘我。食﹐就係要食得暢快食得爽﹐食到忘我先係開心。

我地點左:

醉雞
皮蛋豆腐
雲白肉
和尚戴帽 + 叉子燒餅
四川擔擔麵
小籠包
紅油抄手
酸辣湯
酒釀丸子

係。我地得兩個人。係﹐我地係叫左九樣野。係﹐後面個檯四個後生仔都係叫咁多野。不過其實我仲想點多d….

我地隔離左右的人的眼神真係話到俾你聽佢地真係覺得好神奇好驚訝好似見到有人用手行路用腳食飯咁架﹐交足戲架佢地。

碧螺春清清地幾好飲。但係據我所了解﹐綠茶係唔應該用太熱的水去沖﹐如果唔係就破壞左 and 飲唔出綠茶的果一種「嫩」。所以…如果唔係咁熱會好d 囉。同埋蠢左呀我﹐唔叫埋龍井試下。(不過淨係擺野食都唔夠地方﹐莫講話放多壺茶。….


等左一陣﹐竟然係後叫的紅油抄手先上。皮做得很薄﹐都見到裡面的餡係咩樣。我向來都唔係一個食得好辣的人﹐但係我都食到呢個紅油抄手﹐而且係辣得好好味添。辣我食得多﹐好少會食到辣得來想繼續食的。呢個咁平咁多件的紅油抄手做到了。
可叫度: 抵叫

後來來左雲白肉。雲白肉係一片片切得好薄的豬肉。顏色方面真係白雪雪架喎。肥膏部份當然係白色﹐但係 non-肥膏部份都係白色架。一大碟圍成車輪狀的白肉中間有一碟辣油。夾起一塊來睇﹐肥瘦分得幾好﹐唔會成片都係肥膏。我先試一片沒點辣油的。一食落口的時候肉香未出﹐反而係感覺到師傅的刀功了不起﹐將肥豬肉切到咁薄。其次係選料很好﹐一入口肥膏即溶﹐有食過豬油的朋友就知豬油幾鬼香。滿口豬香之後﹐就到享受瘦肉的時候。白雪雪的瘦肉有預期中的粗糙感﹐我覺得係正常的。雖然有豬油香﹐但係我唔覺得好油膩。辣汁黑黑的看似普通的辣椒鼓油﹐但味道很不錯。雖然……感覺上很似那紅油抄手裡的辣油。
可叫度﹕大叫

跟住上皮蛋豆腐。…..喂唔值四十五蚊喎。
可叫度﹕可以唔叫

然後上左擔擔麵。不過因為小籠包都到喇﹐所以要聲食左小籠包先﹐凍左唔好食。小籠包好抵食﹐廿八蚊八隻﹐最衰叫得野多﹐如果唔係﹐咁抵食的話我一定一人一客！網上的食評好奇怪﹐有人話佢的皮太厚唔得﹐有人話佢個皮太薄一夾就穿。我就覺得d 人都痴線的。小籠包就當然係皮薄的靚。呢度的小籠包就薄得來可以同「翡翠拉麵小籠包」有得 fight﹐外表一d 都唔差。至於個d 話塊皮太薄一夾就穿咁的小籠包好唔得的人…..收皮啦唔該。自己唔識夾小籠包仲懶人地塊皮薄得滯﹐仲要係度懶地硬﹐都痴 L 線的。

講番小籠包。呀幾好食喎﹐一咬開佢就立刻有肉汁爆出來的。而且係滾燙的。建議大家吃的時候取一個腑首的姿勢﹐讓包中的肉汁向下聚集﹐免得燙咀。

咬到入餡的時候﹐小籠包的肉香已經係湧晒出來﹐一發不可收拾。再加埋肉汁一齊做 reagent, 一個皮﹐肉﹐汁的 chemical reaction 就係個口裡面不停咁翻滾著…..簡直爽到我要輕閉雙眼來感受清楚！小籠包的汁似連咀巴都裝不盡﹐似要在雙耳噴出來一樣！ (誇張得很)
可叫度﹕喪叫！

到擔擔麵。都幾好食﹐麵條有少少「鞋口」﹐但都ok, 個醬唔夠濃﹐辣度對我來講係「仲頂得住」﹐但對於好辣的「辣哥辣妹」來講未免太弱。最得意佢擔擔面唔係搶口咁辣﹐而係飲到落喉嚨 “ding” 先覺得辣﹐吞埋之後仲有「回辣」。嘩~~大佬~~飲茶就話有「回甘」者﹐點可能食辣都有「回辣」架﹐痴線架……
可叫度﹕就係「可叫」

到醉雞。中規中矩。普普通通。算合格的醉雞。
可叫度﹕叫雞喎﹐仲使問

和尚戴帽 & 叉子燒餅﹕全晚最飽肚我一味[食送]。聽到和尚呢個字都知度係齋。其實應該就係一d 好多豉油炒成的麵咁…有少少似上海粗炒咁囉。上面有一大片炒得勁得意的蛋。成隻碟面咁大咁平﹐幾好食。將麵條放入一個類似手機袋狀的叉子燒餅度食。老實講﹐真係無乜特別好食。不過叉子燒餅幾脆幾特別﹐裝滿又油又黑的麵條 & 炒蛋一齊食係一個幾新鮮的中式 Kebab 體驗….但, 唔會再叫囉。無他﹐因為唔係特別好食之嘛。
可叫度﹕唔夠[食送]咪叫下囉

酸辣湯。我頂。餐牌上面話係「海鮮酸辣湯」註明係「改良版」。酸辣湯本身已經係一樣唔錯的湯羹﹐好好奇佢可以點樣「改良」。於是叫左一碗試下。就好彩係叫左一碗咁大把﹐如果唔係全晚的心情都俾佢攪 wor 晒。唔酸唔辣唔好味。
可叫度﹕慘叫~

食到呢個時候其實仲有半碟和尚未食完﹐然後仲有幾件醉d唔醉d 的雞。但係因為已經好飽的關係就再唔食喇。正當我想話「雖然我好飽但係我仲係好想食少少甜品做 conclusion」的時候﹐waitress 姐姐就走來話已經 Last Order 喇你兩條肥仔仲叫唔叫野呀﹐就係我地對望一眼之後的兩秒﹐我地就暽速咁拿住個 Menu 求其點左一個酒釀丸子叫做試下。因為太飽﹐一碗兩份 share 算數。

呢餐金滿庭食得咁開心﹐得到咁高分﹐壓軸的呢一小碗酒釀丸子功不可沒。係我地兩個都飽到撐的時候﹐呢碗小丸子就來到喇。我以前食過好多酒釀丸子﹐俾我的感覺都係一碗痴立立的唔知乜野裝住幾粒麵粉團就算。叫的時候我都預左係佢食的多﹐我最多都係試下味叫做有個交代就算。從來都唔敢對呢味咁奇怪的甜品有 expectation. 點知係我張開呢個「無期待的咀巴」之後…我地食過第一啖之後﹐兩條飽到嘔的肥仔竟然爭食！就係為左爭食呢碗酒釀丸子！天呀！好飽呀！但係好好味呀﹐點算呀…..

我覺得最好係個湯底…..應該係糖水至係。佢用左好多酒釀同埋桂花。D 桂花真係超香﹐勁香。我咁耐以來都係食埋一d 唔香唔好食的桂花﹐仲係度不停咁諗點解d 咁的花都會有人食架陣味咁奇怪又唔香唔好食的。點知原來係我一直以來食的桂花都唔係高 Quali 的桂花。呢碗丸子一開蓋就一陣桂花香滲出來。飲落口非常舒服受用。雖然你會感覺到呢碗糖水係好甜﹐甜到你唔應該飲咁多﹐但係一道又一道的桂花香係口裡反來覆去﹐滲透五官似的﹐成個人都好似 Tempo 咁爽晒。甜甜的糖水做得好潤喉﹐飲落好甘甜﹐好自然。不期然地就會飲多啖…..又飲多啖。丸子係咩味都唔記得﹐反正都只係食過一粒。肥仔正話有芝麻做餡的酒釀丸子好少有﹐通常都係無餡的。但都無所謂﹐我所有的 attention 都放晒係糖水之中﹐幻想緊自己係桂花湖中蕩漾著….
可叫度﹕眼泛淚光地叫完再叫

就係咁﹐兩位大豪客係又食又力的情況之下﹐捧著超脹的肚腩﹐滿足地離開呢次金滿庭美食(或喪食) 之旅。咁的暴食九大簋情況之下﹐埋單位位二百元正。

等一個鐘都抵。

金滿庭
大角咀海庭道18號奧海城2期UG06B舖 (Copy from Openrice)
即係 Olympic Station 出來奧海城上一層轉右行一陣…..最多人等位果間就係…唔識就問人
Tel: 2910-1000 (有心食 / 無心等/ 人數多的絕對建議訂位)

3 Mar 2006

你睇我個樣 free 成咁, 就知道我又到左 boss-free 的日子。今日何止 boss-free, 簡直就好似係度放假一樣﹐只係俾人困左係 office 裡面。

無錯﹐我老世又出 trip 喇﹐我又試無人理我。不過﹐我都要等到今日星期五先可以堂堂正正咁打日記 (死未)。因為雖然話我老世唔係度者, 但係仲有好多其化人係度架嘛﹐俾佢地見到我係度唔知做乜野總之就唔係做緊公司野的話, 好失禮架嘛。所以我都要等到今日連其他「哨兵」放假的放假﹐出 trip 的出 trip 我先可以咁肆無忌憚。但係話時話喎, 我真係開始習慣左呢一種極度靡爛又無謂又頹廢的日子。

我本來都已經唔係一個有雄心壯志的人來架喇﹐我向來都係見到一d 好有雄心壯志﹐背後有一團熊熊烈火的人就會怕左, 然後避之則吉的人來架嘛。好難得我用左成個暑假的時間來儲左個少少的雄心壯志 (其實都係無乜, 都係番工的頭幾日先有少少「志」, 仲要係唔「壯」的)﹐點知就碰著呢一份咁騎呢的「織織復織織﹐阿溥當戶織」的工作。日日就係坐係度坐足八個鐘頭﹐渾渾噩噩﹐無所事事﹐無沖擊﹐無挑戰﹐無溝通﹐無野學。坐﹐坐﹐坐。呆﹐呆﹐呆。一日﹐兩日﹐三日﹐四日﹐………

咩志氣都沉啦。

志氣越沉﹐個人就越無心去搵過第二份工。實在係太容易喇。相比起其他人來講﹐我的 working effort-salary ratio 實在係太可觀。因為 working effort 係零﹐你個 salary (分母)係幾細都己經無所謂。

為此我想 skip 左本來想講的十萬字 description, 直接跳到後半部。請問大家﹐你地係點樣搵到自己的人生目標的呢？咁我呢個毫無目標的人又應該點樣搵我想做乜野呢？學似其他人咁搵 recruiting agencies 又可唔可以解決到問題呢？

多謝大家相助。請小心車門, please mind the dork, do do do do do….

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尋晚 ICQ Kilkenny 突然間搵我﹐問我個陣時做 Thesis 用左邊幾種 statistical analysis……嘩我即係起晒 “gong” (陽去聲)。 我鬼記得咩 N 年前的傷心事。

於是我又諗起好多以前 222 的事情。回憶總是美好的。

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尋晚我花左好多時間去搵番自己係 N 年前開過的一個 Xanga Blog site. 今朝我就花左好多時間去 modify 佢……..咁佢始終都真係多好多 function, 同埋我話晒都係第一次用之嘛。但係正當我好想準備要打野入去的時候呢﹐我就估唔到佢竟然無 backdating 呢個咁 simple 的 function.

嘩﹐大佬呀﹐你無得 backdating, 咁我點可能將我 showhappy 裡面超過三年的悠長日記統統都「搬屋」呢？呢個有錢 Xanga 都唔識得賺的情況之下﹐我就決定暫時唔搬住。佢一日無呢個 function 我就一日都唔會走。

其實呀, backdating 係一個非常之 simple 的 function, 好多 blog site 都有呢個 function 架喇, 典解頂頂大名的 Xanga 竟然會無架！有無九菜呀真係。

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我入職呢間大公司之前﹐係要做一個 Aptitude Test 的。呢個 Aptitude Test 的其中一部份﹐就係要係一大張sheet 裡面填好多好多 describe 你自己的詞語的 MC. 例如你覺得你份人係好無品的﹐就係「橫蠻無理的」隔離剔一剔。如此類推。連做幾份, 一份係自己睇自己﹐一份係(你估)人地點睇你﹐一份係人地通常點話你。

我一直都聽聞呢個 Aptitude Test 真係好死準。但係我就一直都無機會睇番自己個 test results, 於是我今日就趁得閒 (笑咩笑, 唔准笑！) 問下大秘書。

雖然到頭來我都係問唔到﹐但係得知原來呢個 test 真係好勁架, 好似。佢出的 results 係出幾個 graph, 然後就將你歸納為幾種人 (ABCDE)。你有填乜野, 無填乜野﹐係邊個位填﹐統統都會影響到你的 results。

咁我就問呀大秘書﹐點知大秘書話佢得閒先幫我搵喎。咁即係以後都唔會幫我搵喇﹐waste air。

不過佢話佢記得我係一個好 high D 的人。唔係好 high 的人, 亦唔係好鐘意落D 的人﹐係 D 系性格裡面的表表者。咁 D 係乜野呀, 我問。佢話即係一個好 detail, 好 follow book, 好 bible 的人。

好 detail
好 follow book
好 Bible

喂﹐阿姐﹐你咪 up 得就 up 喎。我陳阿溥邊忽似呀。

不過……話時話﹐我又真係幾 follow book, 又真係唔識得獨立思考的….

我番埋自己位之後﹐個腦不停咁轉﹐不停咁係度諗「我真係咁的人？我真係一個咁~~~~~~~的人？唔會卦…..唔係嘛……」



*唔會卦…..
唔係嘛……
咁咪好唔掂…..
唔會卦……..
唔係嘛……..*

Repeat ***

24 Feb 2006

Good day,

These two weeks my boss is going on a business trip again. What’s more, all of the big bosses will go too because they are going for a management meeting. How grand it sounds like. Anyway, all I care about is whether there is anyone who can see what I’m doing on my screen. Besides that, nothing really bothers me.

So it’s just this long time of boss-free situation that makes me think of what I can do while I’m in the office and when no one can see what I’m doing. You know, my office is an open one and everyone can see what the others are doing at the same time. I wonder when will they start to put people to sit in a big circle so that everyone is being watched while watching the others….

Well let’s go back to what thought of doing. Actually I had brought along with me the travelogue (or just diary) of the Taiwan field trip we had in the Christmas of 2004. I loved the trip so much and I would really want turn back time to be there once again (though impossible). So maybe by preparing this diary to be published online will make me reminiscent of the old memories again. So I brought along to the office with me this several pieces of loose paper.

Those are pieces of paper from the old schedule book that the CUHK SU distributes to everyone in our university. When I was packing my luggage for the trip, I thought of bringing some kind of note pad with me so that I can write down what exactly do I feel during the different moments in my travel. I have this idea when I was just about to finish up my packing and lock the luggage.

During my Taiwan trip, I tried to squeeze time to write as many as I can when I have the time. Most of the times, those are situation where everyone is sleeping sweetly on the coach with their friends, while I’m staying awake to write on that little piece of paper at the end of the aisle (where I was miserably seated) with dim light on unstable seat. Reading back the pieces of notes now, sometimes I really don’t know what I have written on the pieces of paper. But I can still see through the papers to see my happiness or unhappiness (or sleepiness) during the time I was writing on the shaking and bumping coach.

There were so many memories during the 9-day trip. There were so many.

During these two days I have been reading what I wrote on the paper. It wasn’t a lot, but the writings are so poorly-written that it takes me more time to read than to digest. Just when I thought that after I read them all, I should have a good grasp of what I should type as a complete diary, I saw something that shocked me and don’t know how to continue.

Day one, typed. No problem.
Day two, missing. Nothing written about it
Day three, written in details. good
Day four, written in superb detail. Almost can do read-and-type.
Day five, nothing. Only a ? mark was written. What the F was I doing.
Day six, written only 4-5 sentences. Better than nothing, but isn’t far from it anyway.
Day seven, nothing written. Not even the set of words “Day 7 – “
Day eight, words recording my emotion that time, but I don’t know what was I thinking. So, again, useless.
Day nine, same as Day seven, not a word was written.

I flip through all the pages and desperately searching for more words or more hidden messages that I stupidly created for myself but there just wasn’t anything.

My goodness. How can I continue to prepare the travel diary if my records are presented in such a poor manner? With so many days of missing and useless info?

The only way to rebuild the data, as far as I can think of, is from looking at the photos taken. And this cannot be done within the office, everyone knows.

Ohhh….I have no idea what to do.

15 Feb 2006

Another new phase in my job

Well by this title I don’t actually means that I am shifted to a new post nor do I actually have a new job to do, which is surely misleading by this title. What I mean actually is that I am entering a new “boring” phase in my work. I’m experiencing a different psychological stage in my job now.

Originally I was feeling extremely bored in my office. Then as I started to adapt to the working environment of office, I start to get unhealthy, and almost stopped exercising. Life inside and outside work is both dull. I tried to keep myself alive.

Then I started to learn the ways to surf the internet in the office, to use MSN Web messenger on the internet daringly, to kill time easily by searching things in Wikipedia. That really helped. Sometimes I find some ad hoc tasks to do to kill some time too. I was spending a whole lot easier times, especially when those people that can see what I’m doing on my screen are left for business trips. It’s heaven here (in a jail’s sense).

Now the freshness of these activities are gone and I went stale again. I know “stale” this word doesn’t really suit describing my situation now, but I found this world appallingly close to what I think of myself for the time being.

Well, there are many wishes in my heart. I wish for a better job, which means I should start finding now. But if I am really able to find a new job, then it means I have to start working again without break…which I wait for so long. I wish for the summer holidays back. So it is best that my break between the jobs is in the mid-summer, where the weather is hottest, sweat is heaviest, girls are hottest, clothes are least and the sun is shiniest! YEAH SUNSHINE!

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(轉貼)
有一個男孩有著很壞的脾氣，於是他的父親就給了他一袋釘子；並且告訴他，每當他發脾氣的時候就釘一根釘子在後院的圍籬上。第一天，這個男孩釘下了37根釘子。慢慢地每天釘下的數量減少了。他發現控制自己的脾氣要比釘下那些釘子來得容易些。

終於有一天這個男孩再也不會失去耐性亂發脾氣，他告訴他的父親這件事，父親告訴他，現在開始每當他能控制自己的脾氣的時候，就拔出一根釘子。一天天地過去了，最後男孩告訴他的父親，他終於把所有釘子都拔出來了。父親握著他的手來到後院說：「你做得很好，我的好孩子，但是看看那些圍籬上的洞。這些圍籬將永遠不能回復成從前的樣子。你生氣的時候說的話就像這些釘子一樣留下疤痕。如果你拿刀子捅別人一刀，不管你說了多少次對不起，那個傷口將永遠存在。」話語的傷痛就像真實的傷痛一樣令人無法承受

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如果你拿刀子捅別人一刀，不管你說了多少次對不起，那個傷口將永遠存在。」話語的傷痛就像真實的傷痛一樣令人無法承受





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13 Feb 2006

I really can’t believe it but that happened.

I’m sure the severe air pollution yesterday contributed to the large number of participants reported suffering cramps and short of breath and other illnesses during the marathon. However, someone from the editorials also pointed out that many of the participants are inexperienced, ill-trained amateur runners who can barely finish even the 10k run.

The prize is raised, and the atmosphere is raised as well. More and more people are interested in joining into the long run for either money, challenge, or simply for fun.

But absolutely not for the chance of being a living dead for the rest of your life.

Few days ago I was jogging around my home and saw someone wearing the tracksuit for the marathon this year. However, from this appearance and his shape, I am sure that he’s no runner at all. I’m pretty sure if that guy didn’t know his limits yesterday, he could have very probably one of the 5000 victims. Hong Kong loves vanity, loves ranking and loves fame. But the record-breaking number of 5000 injuries and illness from a single sports event…is INfamous instead.

God bless the patients in the hospital, especially those who are severely injured.

9 Feb 2006

I’ve watched the Fearless霍元甲 few days ago and frankly, I really don’t know who the f*** choose Jay Chou to sing the theme song. Jay is no problem for singing theme song but the main problem is the song itself. The movie is nice and was shot in a good way. The arrangement of scenes and scripts are good too. When everything was just so well placed together and culminated to the end of the movie, there comes Jay Chou’s Hip Hop Rock Soul Funk whatever it is song.

My goodness. How can Ronny Yu accept this? That’s totally anti-climax!

22 Jan 2006

我真係好讚嘆 and 佩服方文山。

佢填的詞真係好勁好勁。好的歌詞我地都見過唔少﹐起碼香港都有一個林夕同黃偉文。但係佢地填的詞係「到肉」﹐係「中」。而方文山填出來的詞係「清秀」﹐係「典雅」.....唔係呀, 唔係白花油呀.....唔好笑啦.....佢真係填得好架呢.....

一早估到你會諗白花油, 衰鬼。

今次賓周倫隻碟的水準係唔錯, 但係絕對睇唔出有乜野創新之處....簡直就係了無新意。

所以, 係一樣的歌, 一樣的編曲, 一樣的含糊其詞的唱腔, 一樣的聲嘶力竭的唱慘情歌之下........
......方文山的詞就起到好大的「撐住」作用。

....想像唔到沒有方文山的賓周倫會係點。


p.s. 孫燕姿的歌的歌詞都好鬼正架, 中 point 中得很。仲好過梁靜茹呀。

17 Jan 2006

It’s not easy to type diaries in my office these days. I have moved from the original “centred” position I was sitting in the office to a new seat which is on the “border”. Theoretically it should give me more chance of doing things that others can’t see but this office really designed in a good way…you screen is showering to everybody no matter where you sit. Even those sitting at the back row who thought no one could see what they’re doing on the computer actually had their images reflected on the huge glass window behind them.

Shall I say exquisite?

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We hear from time to time that “love is something difficult to explain” or something like that. It’s something that makes you think so much of it’s meaning. We all hear that so much from our everyday lives.

But what about career? Does anyone think that “career is something difficult to explain”? had anyone think what is the meaning of career in one’s life? We all know that you should do something you like it, but does that mean turning your hobbies into your job / career / occupation / (whatever English terms out there)? How do you balance life and job? Except money, why are you working for what you are doing?

Ok, you might think I will give a thought on the above questions, ya? In fact, I’m not. I’m just asking, I don’t like to be too philosophical at times. It drives you crazy, and I prefer stick to be lame sane enough.

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So many scandals and malfunctions around the KCR these days. It really remind us the differences between British-management-style MTR and Chinese-management-style KCR. We won’t go deep into the topic, let’s just stick to the surface – and the surface of KCR’s trains is uglier than MTR’s for million times enough. Jesus Christ, who the f**k propose using this blue body and red doors and yellow bands…even the circus train is better than that!

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My Big boss is really a fun guy (sometimes). One day when he was whistling in the office (yes this is HIS office, he is everything), the rhythm is just so familiar to all of us. In fact, we are surprised to find out that he is whistling 月亮代表我的心 by 鄧麗君! And hey! He’s a Gweilo! He’s a Dane and he’s listening to Teresa Tang’s songs! Haha. Music has no boundary. Then he’s enthusiastically asking us whether we have listen to her songs before. Of course we do, we’re HKers from the 80s! (me from the 90s, please be noted)

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You know, I’m starting to think I should go back to the university to study instead of coming out of the society to work. It just doesn’t suit me. Yes I know it’s just escaping. I know.

Hmmm…..

Sometimes I really miss the days of last summer, when I can do whatever I like to everyday, and I can bathe under the sunshine in the nice beach / swimming pools…I wish I can have those days again. Whenever I don’t want to work, my minds would be drifted to those days again. I don’t fancy having a lot of money, I don’t fancy having well-paid jobs without working, I fancy those days.

Those summer days.

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Suddenly became busy for a moment when boss tell me to help him do some stuff, haha, so happy, finally have something different to do (although very easy jobs)

14 Jan 2006

今晚有少少無聊, 於是打開個日記睇睇, 嘩, 原來我咁耐無打過日記架喇。

睇來係 office 調左位之後的日子都唔係咁好過呀下。成日都會好近咁有個人可以睇到我係度做乜野。於是番到屋企之後就已經無晒心機再打日記。

不過我都係要真係無聊到極, 或者係有感而發的時候先會想打日記。好似衣家咁, 我有機可以打, 有覺可以訓, 不知幾唔想打。

所以, bye bye la~

28 Dec 2005

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year everyone.

I have witnessed the crazy crowdedness of TST in Christmas Eve’s night. People are crowded together and extends from TST to Jordan and beyond. That’s the spectacular scene that you can easily find in Hong Kong but not the other places. Yo man I love Hong Kong (to some extent).

Christmas is finally over. New year is coming. And in between, many of us has to work 3 days.

Boring. After this long holiday, I really just don’t want to start working.
I wish the holiday never ends.

I wish the holiday never ends.

Countdown to New Year's Eve: 3 days only!!

15 Dec 2005

Just to remind every of my friends:

我仲識打中文的
只係我公司打中文的話太張揚
所以打英文…感覺上無咁張揚
雖然呢段中文我都係係公司裡面打的…
因為見到…大家因為我被逼打英文日記之後
讀者人數暴跌

我知我仲有好多要學好英文地方
同埋英文日記真係令人唔好受
但請多多包咸, 越包越咸…

多謝收看~~

15 Dec 2005

Can anyone tell me what the hell are the Korean farmers are thinking?!

They are experienced, they are organized, they are structure, they planned, they trained, they rehearsed and of course, they prepared.

This is no demonstration, I can definitely tell you. Their actions proved far beyond demonstration are not their ultimate want. I really do not understand why do the police conform to that primal violence that could only be out of some uneducated rioters. They don’t just want to tell, they want to catch attention and demonstrate their power.

Just as the editorials of so many newspaper these two days commented, things had gone too far from just being protesting. They are showing to the world that they have the power to bulldoze the way. And they have the will to do so.

I have thought of two things afterwards, one is about the police the other is about the farmers.

For the police.

If they keep on the absolute defence strategy, they will be able to keep the farmers still away from the venue. So far, the farmers can’t do much except grabbing some shields out in the chaos. On the police side, however, they will be gaining sympathy from the public because they are trying to be very “gentle” towards the protestors. However, they are not gaining respect because they are relatively coward then the imaginative situation that police should be “suppressing” the protestors instead of “fending” them off. Both ways will earn some reputation, though.

For the farmers.

There is no sign of easing or retreating. Escalating tension and violence is expected. When the agricultural products issues discussed in the convention do not provide a satisfactory consensus, which VERY probably won’t, he farmers will probably throw everything they have to the police. By everything it could mean physical objects, human resources, tactics…I mean, to civilians of Hong Kong, it’s better to stay home that day.

What I thought for the farmers are not mainly about this. What I thought is: they are so angry, they are so outrageous, they will give their lives to demonstrate to the people.

What for? What is their driving force?

Maybe the answer is simply “because their livelihood is really gravely endangered” and “because Korean cultures are very extreme and resolute”. But I’m more 陰謀論者. I think someone is behind, stirring up their emotions further in order to use their forces and their united spirits against the WTO. Well you might think I’m crazy to think so, but there could be a high chance that this is true. You see, how many Korean farmers are well-educated actually? It’s always easier to coax illiterate into upheaval than those intelligent ones. And mind you, people who are against WTO are not just Korean farmers. They come from all over the world, including western countries. What’s better than having a large team of “strike force” with unlimited courage and energy and the willingness to die for? And is free? And is easily stirred? And is in large amount? And is easily persuaded?

Man, these orcs are even better than those produced by Mordor!

Countdown to Christmas’ Eve: 9 Days only!!!
Countdown to 2006 New Year’s Eve: 16 days (close, too)

9 Dec 2005

Well, I’m finally graduated from the university. And I’m a man now not a boy anymore, though I totally don’t think so.

You know what? Sometimes you dream of something to happen in your life, and you still fancy it even though you’re getting older. And one day when your dream comes true, you don’t feel like happy as if the TV commercials do. You just go through it, nothing special.

This is what my university ceremony gives me feels like.

Can’t imagine everyone is being so calm, including me. This is a monumental moment for our families, for the one who loves us. Yet, we are very unimpressed by the moment. Part of it might be because we feel like we are almost obliged and certain to be graduated than with our hard-work and luck.

Maybe because there are too much resource around for us to use. Take a look around. We are blessed with so much funding into the education system that makes studying in the university possible. And the strange system of it guarantee almost everyone to be graduated. How can people feel gratified if everything around them is taken for granted?

If it wasn’t that my parents and relatives were so overjoyed for my graduation, I would have never give a thought on this. Friends around me are just as calm (or emotionless) as I do. We were very passionate and excited this April, when we first try to put on our gowns and take photos with friends and hose everyone else with champagne. We cherished the moment, just for fun.

The meaning behind is loosing. And I can’t see the coming generation will tighten it up.

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When will my passion come back?
When did I turn to be so apathetic?

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Countdown to Christmas’ Eve: 13 Days (entering the fortnight…Prepare yourselves!)
Countdown to New Year’s Eve: 20 Days

2 Dec 2005

Almost everyone knows me aware of my almost-addictive attitude towards video games and computer games. However, I’m not as everyone thought as to be having a lot of “investments” into those things. Actually, I didn’t bought any new game consoles ever since Playstation one.

You might wonder why I didn’t buy PS2. Well, I can’t think of a reason too. When I was in secondary school, I know that I don’t have the money to buy it. My parents don’t like me to do so, too. They think that I’m too addicted to such things that hampered my social developments, my time spending with family, and also to my health. The most important reason is my brother. When my bad habits towards video games are magnified to a level of several times, that’s him. And worse, he isn’t performing too well in school. To my parents, academic performance is a prerequisite for anything. I was lucky to be having better results, so I have more bargaining power towards my parents and have less discipline. My brother, on the other hand, ain’t so lucky.

I guess it’s more family matter than myself, to a certain extent.

Moreover, that time I was living in the hostel in university. I seldom go back home. I just love the hostel, everything it has. Within there, I don’t need PS2 to make myself happy. I have plenty of things to do in university, and they are giving me satisfaction and happiness far more than a game machine. Those were the days that I was feeling I’m doing something meaningful in my life.

Now, the days of “don’t know what I’m doing” is back again, just like those days when I was in secondary school and don’t know what I’m doing everyday. There is no excitement and there is no fulfilment. You feel like live every day yet you also feel dying every day. Playing computer games become so attractive and so escape out of the reality. I can’t help myself from stop playing.

Recently I would like to play PS2 again. Although I know that it’s very late as a follower to buy this…but hey, there’s going to be a lot of games out there. And now I finally have the money to buy this piece of thing that I wanted for such a long time already.

I know there are going to be a lot of new things coming out of the market. But you know, new things are always the most expensive. Just like few years ago when PS2 was introduced to the market, everyone is crazily going after it. Now everyone is still crazily playing it, but not to the extent that will be so expensive. And technology advanced to a level that using no-disc can also play it.

The new things that I know would be Xbox 360, which is out in the marketing already. The other two things will be Revolution, by Nintendo (poor, they were once the king in the market when Super Famicom was still the main stream). I’ve watched the promotion video clip and found their technology really kind of amazes me. Wow, games are now no longer games. I wish I were born later, so that I can have more chance to play those new things…

The other one, of course, is PS3. I’m not sure what time will it be released. But since the fame and popularity of PS2 is so damn overwhelming…ya, you know.

Just when I was outside for lunch, I saw on some video games magazine telling that the Xbox 360 is having some poor quality consoles. This greatly ruins the image of the newly marketed game console. Not difficult to think of, so as the price of it. It was once speculated to rocketing high prices but now, according to the magazine, can be bought at around 1200. My goodness, that is even cheaper than PS2 to ANY extent.

I think I will buy PS2 very soon. But I hope I can find a second-hand one, because it will take some time before I feel safe to buy the next generation one, either Revolution or Xbox360 (good quality version) or PS3.

Anyone who has second-hand PS2? Or a cheap new one?

Countdown to Christmas’s Eve: 22 Days
Countdown to New Year’s Eve: 29 Days

We’re in the DECEMBER now~~~YEAH

29 Nov 2005

It wasn’t before long that I found myself very sleepy this afternoon. I didn’t have enough sleep these few days. But then I think of something: is that because I have no pressure from the work or is that simply not enough sleep makes me feel so sleepy?

I seem to remember had asked my friends about this one: are you more easily prone to sleepiness when you’re having a lot of work and exhausted, or when you are having unimportant things to be done and feeling useless?

Of me, when I’m really under great pressure of deadlines, I can suppress my sleepiness. This is the experience that I had when I was in university. Well, let’s put it in this way, I had most of my experience from the past three years of university more than all the other years in my life. Diversity really makes you know yourself more. And diversity could be best found in my university. (yeh, MY university only, ho ho ho…).

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These days, I can feel that myself is getting much and much lazier. I just don’t want to work hard. When jobs are given to me, I will finish it as quick as I can. But when those ad hoc jobs are finished, I don’t want to move again. I’m not motivated enough, neither internally nor externally.

I become more selfish too. I just want more for myself and less for the others. I just think of myself first, and not the others, even if those people are precious to me.

I become less willing to change, or to give up things. I just want things the way they are now, unless it’s really very bad. I’m so reluctant to change and so used to comfort.

I’m decaying. In three aspects I am decaying. One is physically, second is mentally, and the third, morally.

What happened?

25 Nov 2005

Back a few months ago, while the summer heat is still high and the sun is still the beautiful mid-summer firewall, there was a nice young boy who goes to swimming almost everyday. He wasn’t really going to swim like fish, though, he’s just enjoying the water, enjoy the freedom of movement (without others’ laughing), enjoy the summer’s heat, enjoy the big bright sunshine, enjoying the tanned and beautiful crowd, enjoying the summer, enjoying the atmosphere. He was in good shape. I mean, eh, he was in a much better shape. And he didn’t care whether he looks good or he looks not good enough.

Then the young man found a job and started working 10-7 each day. Because of the extraordinarily silent and motionless environment in the office that he’s working in, and because his boss is just sitting very NEXT to him, he feels great pressure every time he tries to walk away to do at least some stretching. The first two week of working, to him, is a total torture. Every muscle in his body is yelling and complaining from actively moving everyday to total sedentary, total handicapped on the chair, in front of the monitor, everyday.

But human are surprising creates. They can easily adapt to different environment. After one and a half month, the young man is used to the severely handicapped-style, stick-you-ass-to-the-chair-all-day working style. Slowly, his body is disintegrating from inside. And he can do nothing over it because there are many watchful eyes in the office. He knows he’s decaying, with a visible speed and a tangible touch.

Two month’s over, the young man had decayed so fast to a rate that he can’t even walk too fast. His legs are totally crippled (metaphorically speaking, of course). His arms are so weak that even he’s leaning his head upon his arms, his arms are too tired to support them, shown by shaking and shaking. His waist, however, keeps bulging and bulging. That is the part where the body seats and there is the part where the excess energy is stored. That is also the part where his body moves least, if any.

The young man is very sad. He can do nothing over it while overlooking himself getting worse. He can’t swim under the sun because he never sees it in weekdays. He can’t jog because after dinner it’s too tired already. He can’t move his body because that shows he’s too impatient on his job, which is way too visible for his boss 1m away from him. He’s bored, he’s tired, and he’s dissatisfied. He knows this happens to nearly every job in the world, and that’s what makes him even more dejected.

Before, he can put on pants with 32inch waist…….then he has to wear 33…..then 34……and coming 35….just within 3 months!!!!

Question: how many days can his meat and fat feed another person if he’s being hunted down in a no-man island?

Answer: at least a year…I guess.

Sigh…

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Tell you something…

…it’s only one month from the Christmas~~~~Yeh~~~~~

Countdown to Christmas’s Eve: 28 Days
Countdown to New Year’s Eve: 36 Days