24 Feb 2006

Good day,

These two weeks my boss is going on a business trip again. What’s more, all of the big bosses will go too because they are going for a management meeting. How grand it sounds like. Anyway, all I care about is whether there is anyone who can see what I’m doing on my screen. Besides that, nothing really bothers me.

So it’s just this long time of boss-free situation that makes me think of what I can do while I’m in the office and when no one can see what I’m doing. You know, my office is an open one and everyone can see what the others are doing at the same time. I wonder when will they start to put people to sit in a big circle so that everyone is being watched while watching the others….

Well let’s go back to what thought of doing. Actually I had brought along with me the travelogue (or just diary) of the Taiwan field trip we had in the Christmas of 2004. I loved the trip so much and I would really want turn back time to be there once again (though impossible). So maybe by preparing this diary to be published online will make me reminiscent of the old memories again. So I brought along to the office with me this several pieces of loose paper.

Those are pieces of paper from the old schedule book that the CUHK SU distributes to everyone in our university. When I was packing my luggage for the trip, I thought of bringing some kind of note pad with me so that I can write down what exactly do I feel during the different moments in my travel. I have this idea when I was just about to finish up my packing and lock the luggage.

During my Taiwan trip, I tried to squeeze time to write as many as I can when I have the time. Most of the times, those are situation where everyone is sleeping sweetly on the coach with their friends, while I’m staying awake to write on that little piece of paper at the end of the aisle (where I was miserably seated) with dim light on unstable seat. Reading back the pieces of notes now, sometimes I really don’t know what I have written on the pieces of paper. But I can still see through the papers to see my happiness or unhappiness (or sleepiness) during the time I was writing on the shaking and bumping coach.

There were so many memories during the 9-day trip. There were so many.

During these two days I have been reading what I wrote on the paper. It wasn’t a lot, but the writings are so poorly-written that it takes me more time to read than to digest. Just when I thought that after I read them all, I should have a good grasp of what I should type as a complete diary, I saw something that shocked me and don’t know how to continue.

Day one, typed. No problem.
Day two, missing. Nothing written about it
Day three, written in details. good
Day four, written in superb detail. Almost can do read-and-type.
Day five, nothing. Only a ? mark was written. What the F was I doing.
Day six, written only 4-5 sentences. Better than nothing, but isn’t far from it anyway.
Day seven, nothing written. Not even the set of words “Day 7 – “
Day eight, words recording my emotion that time, but I don’t know what was I thinking. So, again, useless.
Day nine, same as Day seven, not a word was written.

I flip through all the pages and desperately searching for more words or more hidden messages that I stupidly created for myself but there just wasn’t anything.

My goodness. How can I continue to prepare the travel diary if my records are presented in such a poor manner? With so many days of missing and useless info?

The only way to rebuild the data, as far as I can think of, is from looking at the photos taken. And this cannot be done within the office, everyone knows.

Ohhh….I have no idea what to do.

15 Feb 2006

Another new phase in my job

Well by this title I don’t actually means that I am shifted to a new post nor do I actually have a new job to do, which is surely misleading by this title. What I mean actually is that I am entering a new “boring” phase in my work. I’m experiencing a different psychological stage in my job now.

Originally I was feeling extremely bored in my office. Then as I started to adapt to the working environment of office, I start to get unhealthy, and almost stopped exercising. Life inside and outside work is both dull. I tried to keep myself alive.

Then I started to learn the ways to surf the internet in the office, to use MSN Web messenger on the internet daringly, to kill time easily by searching things in Wikipedia. That really helped. Sometimes I find some ad hoc tasks to do to kill some time too. I was spending a whole lot easier times, especially when those people that can see what I’m doing on my screen are left for business trips. It’s heaven here (in a jail’s sense).

Now the freshness of these activities are gone and I went stale again. I know “stale” this word doesn’t really suit describing my situation now, but I found this world appallingly close to what I think of myself for the time being.

Well, there are many wishes in my heart. I wish for a better job, which means I should start finding now. But if I am really able to find a new job, then it means I have to start working again without break…which I wait for so long. I wish for the summer holidays back. So it is best that my break between the jobs is in the mid-summer, where the weather is hottest, sweat is heaviest, girls are hottest, clothes are least and the sun is shiniest! YEAH SUNSHINE!

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(轉貼)
有一個男孩有著很壞的脾氣，於是他的父親就給了他一袋釘子；並且告訴他，每當他發脾氣的時候就釘一根釘子在後院的圍籬上。第一天，這個男孩釘下了37根釘子。慢慢地每天釘下的數量減少了。他發現控制自己的脾氣要比釘下那些釘子來得容易些。

終於有一天這個男孩再也不會失去耐性亂發脾氣，他告訴他的父親這件事，父親告訴他，現在開始每當他能控制自己的脾氣的時候，就拔出一根釘子。一天天地過去了，最後男孩告訴他的父親，他終於把所有釘子都拔出來了。父親握著他的手來到後院說：「你做得很好，我的好孩子，但是看看那些圍籬上的洞。這些圍籬將永遠不能回復成從前的樣子。你生氣的時候說的話就像這些釘子一樣留下疤痕。如果你拿刀子捅別人一刀，不管你說了多少次對不起，那個傷口將永遠存在。」話語的傷痛就像真實的傷痛一樣令人無法承受

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如果你拿刀子捅別人一刀，不管你說了多少次對不起，那個傷口將永遠存在。」話語的傷痛就像真實的傷痛一樣令人無法承受





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13 Feb 2006

I really can’t believe it but that happened.

I’m sure the severe air pollution yesterday contributed to the large number of participants reported suffering cramps and short of breath and other illnesses during the marathon. However, someone from the editorials also pointed out that many of the participants are inexperienced, ill-trained amateur runners who can barely finish even the 10k run.

The prize is raised, and the atmosphere is raised as well. More and more people are interested in joining into the long run for either money, challenge, or simply for fun.

But absolutely not for the chance of being a living dead for the rest of your life.

Few days ago I was jogging around my home and saw someone wearing the tracksuit for the marathon this year. However, from this appearance and his shape, I am sure that he’s no runner at all. I’m pretty sure if that guy didn’t know his limits yesterday, he could have very probably one of the 5000 victims. Hong Kong loves vanity, loves ranking and loves fame. But the record-breaking number of 5000 injuries and illness from a single sports event…is INfamous instead.

God bless the patients in the hospital, especially those who are severely injured.

9 Feb 2006

I’ve watched the Fearless霍元甲 few days ago and frankly, I really don’t know who the f*** choose Jay Chou to sing the theme song. Jay is no problem for singing theme song but the main problem is the song itself. The movie is nice and was shot in a good way. The arrangement of scenes and scripts are good too. When everything was just so well placed together and culminated to the end of the movie, there comes Jay Chou’s Hip Hop Rock Soul Funk whatever it is song.

My goodness. How can Ronny Yu accept this? That’s totally anti-climax!