28 Dec 2005

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year everyone.

I have witnessed the crazy crowdedness of TST in Christmas Eve’s night. People are crowded together and extends from TST to Jordan and beyond. That’s the spectacular scene that you can easily find in Hong Kong but not the other places. Yo man I love Hong Kong (to some extent).

Christmas is finally over. New year is coming. And in between, many of us has to work 3 days.

Boring. After this long holiday, I really just don’t want to start working.
I wish the holiday never ends.

I wish the holiday never ends.

Countdown to New Year's Eve: 3 days only!!

15 Dec 2005

Just to remind every of my friends:

我仲識打中文的
只係我公司打中文的話太張揚
所以打英文…感覺上無咁張揚
雖然呢段中文我都係係公司裡面打的…
因為見到…大家因為我被逼打英文日記之後
讀者人數暴跌

我知我仲有好多要學好英文地方
同埋英文日記真係令人唔好受
但請多多包咸, 越包越咸…

多謝收看~~

15 Dec 2005

Can anyone tell me what the hell are the Korean farmers are thinking?!

They are experienced, they are organized, they are structure, they planned, they trained, they rehearsed and of course, they prepared.

This is no demonstration, I can definitely tell you. Their actions proved far beyond demonstration are not their ultimate want. I really do not understand why do the police conform to that primal violence that could only be out of some uneducated rioters. They don’t just want to tell, they want to catch attention and demonstrate their power.

Just as the editorials of so many newspaper these two days commented, things had gone too far from just being protesting. They are showing to the world that they have the power to bulldoze the way. And they have the will to do so.

I have thought of two things afterwards, one is about the police the other is about the farmers.

For the police.

If they keep on the absolute defence strategy, they will be able to keep the farmers still away from the venue. So far, the farmers can’t do much except grabbing some shields out in the chaos. On the police side, however, they will be gaining sympathy from the public because they are trying to be very “gentle” towards the protestors. However, they are not gaining respect because they are relatively coward then the imaginative situation that police should be “suppressing” the protestors instead of “fending” them off. Both ways will earn some reputation, though.

For the farmers.

There is no sign of easing or retreating. Escalating tension and violence is expected. When the agricultural products issues discussed in the convention do not provide a satisfactory consensus, which VERY probably won’t, he farmers will probably throw everything they have to the police. By everything it could mean physical objects, human resources, tactics…I mean, to civilians of Hong Kong, it’s better to stay home that day.

What I thought for the farmers are not mainly about this. What I thought is: they are so angry, they are so outrageous, they will give their lives to demonstrate to the people.

What for? What is their driving force?

Maybe the answer is simply “because their livelihood is really gravely endangered” and “because Korean cultures are very extreme and resolute”. But I’m more 陰謀論者. I think someone is behind, stirring up their emotions further in order to use their forces and their united spirits against the WTO. Well you might think I’m crazy to think so, but there could be a high chance that this is true. You see, how many Korean farmers are well-educated actually? It’s always easier to coax illiterate into upheaval than those intelligent ones. And mind you, people who are against WTO are not just Korean farmers. They come from all over the world, including western countries. What’s better than having a large team of “strike force” with unlimited courage and energy and the willingness to die for? And is free? And is easily stirred? And is in large amount? And is easily persuaded?

Man, these orcs are even better than those produced by Mordor!

Countdown to Christmas’ Eve: 9 Days only!!!
Countdown to 2006 New Year’s Eve: 16 days (close, too)

9 Dec 2005

Well, I’m finally graduated from the university. And I’m a man now not a boy anymore, though I totally don’t think so.

You know what? Sometimes you dream of something to happen in your life, and you still fancy it even though you’re getting older. And one day when your dream comes true, you don’t feel like happy as if the TV commercials do. You just go through it, nothing special.

This is what my university ceremony gives me feels like.

Can’t imagine everyone is being so calm, including me. This is a monumental moment for our families, for the one who loves us. Yet, we are very unimpressed by the moment. Part of it might be because we feel like we are almost obliged and certain to be graduated than with our hard-work and luck.

Maybe because there are too much resource around for us to use. Take a look around. We are blessed with so much funding into the education system that makes studying in the university possible. And the strange system of it guarantee almost everyone to be graduated. How can people feel gratified if everything around them is taken for granted?

If it wasn’t that my parents and relatives were so overjoyed for my graduation, I would have never give a thought on this. Friends around me are just as calm (or emotionless) as I do. We were very passionate and excited this April, when we first try to put on our gowns and take photos with friends and hose everyone else with champagne. We cherished the moment, just for fun.

The meaning behind is loosing. And I can’t see the coming generation will tighten it up.

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When will my passion come back?
When did I turn to be so apathetic?

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Countdown to Christmas’ Eve: 13 Days (entering the fortnight…Prepare yourselves!)
Countdown to New Year’s Eve: 20 Days

2 Dec 2005

Almost everyone knows me aware of my almost-addictive attitude towards video games and computer games. However, I’m not as everyone thought as to be having a lot of “investments” into those things. Actually, I didn’t bought any new game consoles ever since Playstation one.

You might wonder why I didn’t buy PS2. Well, I can’t think of a reason too. When I was in secondary school, I know that I don’t have the money to buy it. My parents don’t like me to do so, too. They think that I’m too addicted to such things that hampered my social developments, my time spending with family, and also to my health. The most important reason is my brother. When my bad habits towards video games are magnified to a level of several times, that’s him. And worse, he isn’t performing too well in school. To my parents, academic performance is a prerequisite for anything. I was lucky to be having better results, so I have more bargaining power towards my parents and have less discipline. My brother, on the other hand, ain’t so lucky.

I guess it’s more family matter than myself, to a certain extent.

Moreover, that time I was living in the hostel in university. I seldom go back home. I just love the hostel, everything it has. Within there, I don’t need PS2 to make myself happy. I have plenty of things to do in university, and they are giving me satisfaction and happiness far more than a game machine. Those were the days that I was feeling I’m doing something meaningful in my life.

Now, the days of “don’t know what I’m doing” is back again, just like those days when I was in secondary school and don’t know what I’m doing everyday. There is no excitement and there is no fulfilment. You feel like live every day yet you also feel dying every day. Playing computer games become so attractive and so escape out of the reality. I can’t help myself from stop playing.

Recently I would like to play PS2 again. Although I know that it’s very late as a follower to buy this…but hey, there’s going to be a lot of games out there. And now I finally have the money to buy this piece of thing that I wanted for such a long time already.

I know there are going to be a lot of new things coming out of the market. But you know, new things are always the most expensive. Just like few years ago when PS2 was introduced to the market, everyone is crazily going after it. Now everyone is still crazily playing it, but not to the extent that will be so expensive. And technology advanced to a level that using no-disc can also play it.

The new things that I know would be Xbox 360, which is out in the marketing already. The other two things will be Revolution, by Nintendo (poor, they were once the king in the market when Super Famicom was still the main stream). I’ve watched the promotion video clip and found their technology really kind of amazes me. Wow, games are now no longer games. I wish I were born later, so that I can have more chance to play those new things…

The other one, of course, is PS3. I’m not sure what time will it be released. But since the fame and popularity of PS2 is so damn overwhelming…ya, you know.

Just when I was outside for lunch, I saw on some video games magazine telling that the Xbox 360 is having some poor quality consoles. This greatly ruins the image of the newly marketed game console. Not difficult to think of, so as the price of it. It was once speculated to rocketing high prices but now, according to the magazine, can be bought at around 1200. My goodness, that is even cheaper than PS2 to ANY extent.

I think I will buy PS2 very soon. But I hope I can find a second-hand one, because it will take some time before I feel safe to buy the next generation one, either Revolution or Xbox360 (good quality version) or PS3.

Anyone who has second-hand PS2? Or a cheap new one?

Countdown to Christmas’s Eve: 22 Days
Countdown to New Year’s Eve: 29 Days

We’re in the DECEMBER now~~~YEAH

29 Nov 2005

It wasn’t before long that I found myself very sleepy this afternoon. I didn’t have enough sleep these few days. But then I think of something: is that because I have no pressure from the work or is that simply not enough sleep makes me feel so sleepy?

I seem to remember had asked my friends about this one: are you more easily prone to sleepiness when you’re having a lot of work and exhausted, or when you are having unimportant things to be done and feeling useless?

Of me, when I’m really under great pressure of deadlines, I can suppress my sleepiness. This is the experience that I had when I was in university. Well, let’s put it in this way, I had most of my experience from the past three years of university more than all the other years in my life. Diversity really makes you know yourself more. And diversity could be best found in my university. (yeh, MY university only, ho ho ho…).

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These days, I can feel that myself is getting much and much lazier. I just don’t want to work hard. When jobs are given to me, I will finish it as quick as I can. But when those ad hoc jobs are finished, I don’t want to move again. I’m not motivated enough, neither internally nor externally.

I become more selfish too. I just want more for myself and less for the others. I just think of myself first, and not the others, even if those people are precious to me.

I become less willing to change, or to give up things. I just want things the way they are now, unless it’s really very bad. I’m so reluctant to change and so used to comfort.

I’m decaying. In three aspects I am decaying. One is physically, second is mentally, and the third, morally.

What happened?

25 Nov 2005

Back a few months ago, while the summer heat is still high and the sun is still the beautiful mid-summer firewall, there was a nice young boy who goes to swimming almost everyday. He wasn’t really going to swim like fish, though, he’s just enjoying the water, enjoy the freedom of movement (without others’ laughing), enjoy the summer’s heat, enjoy the big bright sunshine, enjoying the tanned and beautiful crowd, enjoying the summer, enjoying the atmosphere. He was in good shape. I mean, eh, he was in a much better shape. And he didn’t care whether he looks good or he looks not good enough.

Then the young man found a job and started working 10-7 each day. Because of the extraordinarily silent and motionless environment in the office that he’s working in, and because his boss is just sitting very NEXT to him, he feels great pressure every time he tries to walk away to do at least some stretching. The first two week of working, to him, is a total torture. Every muscle in his body is yelling and complaining from actively moving everyday to total sedentary, total handicapped on the chair, in front of the monitor, everyday.

But human are surprising creates. They can easily adapt to different environment. After one and a half month, the young man is used to the severely handicapped-style, stick-you-ass-to-the-chair-all-day working style. Slowly, his body is disintegrating from inside. And he can do nothing over it because there are many watchful eyes in the office. He knows he’s decaying, with a visible speed and a tangible touch.

Two month’s over, the young man had decayed so fast to a rate that he can’t even walk too fast. His legs are totally crippled (metaphorically speaking, of course). His arms are so weak that even he’s leaning his head upon his arms, his arms are too tired to support them, shown by shaking and shaking. His waist, however, keeps bulging and bulging. That is the part where the body seats and there is the part where the excess energy is stored. That is also the part where his body moves least, if any.

The young man is very sad. He can do nothing over it while overlooking himself getting worse. He can’t swim under the sun because he never sees it in weekdays. He can’t jog because after dinner it’s too tired already. He can’t move his body because that shows he’s too impatient on his job, which is way too visible for his boss 1m away from him. He’s bored, he’s tired, and he’s dissatisfied. He knows this happens to nearly every job in the world, and that’s what makes him even more dejected.

Before, he can put on pants with 32inch waist…….then he has to wear 33…..then 34……and coming 35….just within 3 months!!!!

Question: how many days can his meat and fat feed another person if he’s being hunted down in a no-man island?

Answer: at least a year…I guess.

Sigh…

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Tell you something…

…it’s only one month from the Christmas~~~~Yeh~~~~~

Countdown to Christmas’s Eve: 28 Days
Countdown to New Year’s Eve: 36 Days

15 Nov 2005

Very tired. I'm just too tired to work today.

Last night my mother need someone to help her to input quite a lot of data into her company's system in order to generate some presentations for meeting the deadline today. And that was already early in the morning (I would say it's early in the morning rather than late at night, you know). I just don't want to continue when she keeps on pulling me from sleeping and help her finish with all the input.

During daytime I have my whole day facing the computer doing everything with "data" already. And now when I'm back at home, late at night, my mom would keep on pressing me to do something that I don't want to do. That's not the main point.

She keeps on depriving my sleeping time, and that's the main point out of all!

I could hardly make it to the office today if I'm not having several alarms at a time. I hate the feeling of doing something so monotonous with such sleepiness. I'm ok to deal with sleepiness when things are neeeded to be done, such things happened often during university. But not when I'm doing something that...seemingly can be done at anytime with any pace, I'm prone to inefficiency then. Everyone does, I reckon.

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This two days we are having a management level meeting in our office. Most of the management from the Asian offices are coming to HK to have their meetings. My boss had meeting with them yesterday as well. It was a very quiet day. It's the same situation here today, except that my boss left silent for his business trip again. And again, he didn't tell me anything beforehand.

After the lunch, the managers all come back to the office and start to work. Then the worst thing happened: someone smokes in the office! The smell is SOOO damn offensive that I feel that I can't breathe! There wasn't much fresh air in this office for all of us already. There's really no point in aggravating the situation to suffocate of all us! My god! I have to go outside just for a deep breathe of some not-so-fresh-but-better-than-smoke-polluted air.

I'm feeling very, very sleepy now...anyone know what's the cure for hypoxia? help....

Countdown to Christmas' Eve: 38 Days
Countdown to New Year's Eve: 45 Days

10 Nov 2005

Flu of the century

I can't remember when did that happened already.

It was a fierce epidemic raging through the territory;
People keep dying, doctors in desperate doubt that solution nor source could be found;
The public is in great panic. Everyone felt their lives threatened when even the authorities and the professionals, whom they seek advice and help during situations, are helpless themselves this time;
The media blackens everything and threats everyone;
People tried to take their "hygenic precaution sense" to unbelievably high level, almost paranoid;
The city is so helpless that the only way to do was simply submerge everything into chlorine solutions, in a proportion of 1:99. Until the plague is gone, they will finally surface.

That was a few years ago already, though I don't remember which year was that exactly. It seems to be when I was Year 1 in CU.

That was 2003, I guess. That was SARS, I'm sure.

Fear and sadness that once sieged the poor little city silently slipped away as time goes on. HK people are always good at forgetting.

2 years later, we're now facing another epidemic that will soon arrive. This time, everyone else on Earth are shaken and alert, but not HK people. Vaccinations and tensions are together injected to the public in the foreign lands. What about us? Yes we had some measures now, as far as we can tell.

But where is the "excessively paranoid hygenic precaution" sense that the public had when they faced SARS? I don't see anyone shocked, shaken, or even moved here. The bird flu, which is imminent and perhaps more deadly than SARS, is striking from different directions now (refer yourself to the news).

Even National Geographic and Discovery Channel are describing this wave of bird flu as "Flu of the Century"...

Geeeeeeeeee...what happened?



Christmas Eve's Countdown: 43 Days
New Year's Eve Coutndown: 50 Days

8 Nov 2005

This is definitely the sick week.

First I had the flu. Every time the city has the epidemic flu that rages around the region I must be one of the pioneers for it. Last time I shared the flu that spreads all over Hong Kong with all other patients is around March something. That time the loss is tragic, I can say. I missed my chance of going to Thailand together with my family, not to say the loss of money…though there was insurance claim.

Then I had the gastritis. Well of course I don’t know this English name until I check the doctor’s certificate. It doesn’t hurt me much. But feeling the pain at 4 in the morning is definitely torturing. I just can’t work the next day without sleeping all night.

Now I’m back to work. There’s something about the work that I don’t like now.

So many entries in the database are duplicates. Some are easier to identify, some are just as complicated and sophisticated as the authentic one. You can never distinguish which one is an extra one that should be removed. Sometimes the duplicates can even appear in the Operations System, Invoicing system, or even the accounting system! My goodness. How can the brokers use some poorly-spelled names on invoices? If any legal arguments are to be involved, we are definitely going to be on the disadvantaged side.

Then of course anyone with some sense will try to seek help. So do I. I sent mails to various brokers for various entries to ask for their help. The result? 95% of them do NOT answer my mails. Our intricate system allows us to see who had read your mail. And 100% of them had read my mails already, as I can see from the system. That means, they read the mail and do not reply, even if it’s a personal, internal mail to them.

Christ’s sake…what’s happening? Am I really such a disposable man that doesn’t deserve some attention or respect? I know I’m doing something that seems very meaningless but that’s not so. At least, I believed not so. For just answering me “yes A is the real one B is useless entry” you can help the poor little kid struggling with the database everyday.

Why are you guys just so apathetic? Please.



Christmas' Eve Countdown: 45 Days
New Year's Eve Countdown: 52 Days

1 Nov 2005

I guess if I wasn't having the "aftermath" of a serious flu, I must had been out to LKF to join the Halloween party last night. You know, these things are just so important to me. I mean festivals. Usually I will enjoy them and I expect them. I like people and crowds. I like atmosphere. I like yelling and cheering and laughing among the crowds. Of course I also like having a drink and a deep chat with my friends in a decent cafe or the seaside. But festivals just aren't going to get away from me.

Anyway, I can join again next year. Full attention shift to Christmas please, the most important festival of all.

Countdown to Christmas' Eve: 52 days
Countdown to New Year's Eve: 59 days

26 Oct 2005

Almost everyone around me knows that I like to play computer games. However, different from what most of my friends would expect, I'm not such a person so into computers stuff. I mean, of course I like surfing the internet and ICQ and what else. But I’m just not those kind of person that like to study what is BIOS, what is backdoor, what is firewall, what is CISCO...blah blah blah. And so I didn’t' develop the ability to handle the computer when there is something wrong.

And when the computer goes wrong, it's just so similar to the sky fall. And I'm not exaggerating it, you know. Those that had their computers something wrong before will feel as frustrated as I am as well if there is. We are so relied on such things already.

Then I developed the habit of leaving the computer's problem until someone will voluntarily help me or the problem will be solved by itself but just not me to open the casing and remove the darn parts or to reinstall the whole damn windows again. Time goes on and I guess I have developed a kind of "phobia" towards downed computers.

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Recently I have took out the game of Red Alert 2 to play AGAIN. Well I admit that I really LOVE the game and I have nothing to play too. I would really like to buy some computer games but those pirated ones are so rarely seen and the quality is so low now. I've heard pirated CDs the quality so low that concert VCDs are actually AV porn and games CD-ROM are actually cartoons record from TV. My goodness. How on Earth could I trust them anymore.

Speaking of the Red Alert 2, It's really fun and diverse. For so many times i played the game there is almost never the same response from the computer.

So because of the admiration to the game, I search for the game when I was working with the Wikipedia to search port names. To my shock, there is a story behind:

Westwood studios had been making good games. Their greatest success was the launch of Command and Conquer, which is groundbreaking for the Real Time Strategy games (RTS).

Another game that I've bought and played is the "Lands or Lore 2: Guardian of Destiny". 4CDs the game has. The game is so complicated, the maps are so large that I've tried more than 5 times but never able to make it to the last piece of CD.

The success of smaller companies are always ending happily. Westwood Studios was soon being "purchased" by Electronic Arts games, which is the famous EA Games. Something, then, happened which makes the old staffs in WW Studios unhappy. They left in a bulk and set up another Studio called Petrogylph (something like that). Petroglyph mainly consists of old WW staffs. Those that unwilling to stay in EA games later also joined the Petroglyph.

Maybe this is the reason why the third C&C game (Generals) is so lousy. The Elites are all gone.

So what's the exciting news? Petroglyph is undergoing a project (of course an RTS game, it's their game) which is using their skills and experience to blend with the Force. Yes, they are making the RTS game for Star Wars! Wow. Although I'm not as exciting as playing the similar game for Lord of the Rings, I am, anyhow.

24 Oct 2005

Another new week start. This should be the last week of the month already. I have been waiting for this week for such a long time already. And the only reason for this is money.

Today my working morale fell to lowest. I feel like I'm so sick of everything around here. I don't want to sit here, nor do I want to sit in another office. I don't think I will feel calm too if I lie on my own bed. It's just doesn't feel right. I just want escape from everything. It's just not right. I just feel pressures all around.

I don't want to do such boring work. But deep in my heart I actually appreciate it. Well, think of this: I can go to work at 10 (deadline). The office is just in Causeway Bay, the favourite place for me in HK. And it's very close to my home too.

I can visit the Pet Street every lunch time because it's in the Causeway Bay and I have 1.5 hours of lunch time. Just looking at those cutie and lovely puppies and kitties could really cheer me up for the rest of the day. I have plenty of food to choose in Causeway Bay. I have a Central Library close to my office where I can go read some books during lunch time. I can go for a stroll in the Victoria Park. I can go to the games arcade in the World Trade Centre. I can go to the Cat Cafe to have lunch and play with the cats. I can choose to eat expensive meals or just buy breads from bakeries or supermarkets. I can window shopping during lunch time (although I seldom do).

In the office, it's kind of boring. But actually it just depends on whether I want to work or not. That's because my boss isn't checking me from time to time, but I have my duties to do. Since no one is really keep checking, I do so the same amount of work within one day or spread it over a whole week...no one knows. You can say it's so free or you can say it's so meaningless. Yes, my seat is facing the wall / entrance while the rest of us can face the windows and admire the skyline of Causeway Bay and some even the Victoria Harbour. And yes, everyone else can see what's my monitor is showing so I can't play games in the computer (Ouch! That hurts!). But, Hey! This job got nothing to do anyway. This diary means that I am at least so free to do other things instead of working. Many of the others outside are still working hard everyday just to contribute all their time in working. To them, I'm living in a slice of heaven on Earth.

So what am I feeling not contended with? I keep asking myself this question this morning. Everything seems fine here. Am I really adventurous to get some excitement from another kind of job or am I just being too picky that nothing on the world will satisfy me?

Gee, what the hell am I up to actually.

One thing I'm for sure: If I cannot figure this out ASAP would not have the determination to find another job and leave this one. And always "time and tide waits for no man".

Viola had introduced me the Jardine's MT programme. I thank her for this but I'm kinda sure I'm not as eloquent and able as those guys / girls. But if I can really be one of them that would really be a great leap forward in my life.

Perhaps if Jardine's recruiting clowns...I might have a better chance. Just not with data again, please. Suit yourself, not me.

p.s. It's past lunch time already. I came back from a walk in the pet street with those lovely puppies and some leisurely reading in a book store. The world is as beautiful as before provided that I don't fell asleep on my own desk. My only wish now it to lie naked under the burning hot sun on a beautiful tropical beach alone...eh, heck with it.

21 Oct 2005

老實講呀
我真係唔多鐘意用英文打日記架

今晚開番個日記出來看, 一眼望落去, 嘩, 一大「咋」雞腸, 連我自己都已經唔想讀落去。

但, 無辦法~~~~

21 Oct 2005

Have you ever imagine why are you always so sleepy when you are working? Maybe it's because there is not enough oxygen inside. Just s few weeks back we have heard of a research's results showing that most of the Hong Kong air conditioning is too cold. Actually most of the places in Hong Kong is having a air conditioning too cold problem. even in restaurants, shopping malls, buses (especially buses, they are fridges on wheels).

why is everyone talking about being more "civilized", talking about civil education in the fields of environmental protection, but on the other hand we are doing something that we could have avoided in damging the fragile environment?

i don't know the exact reason for each unit for wasting the energy and creating more CO2, but i guess i am able to summarize / guess some of the reasons out.

the first one i think is because chinese lack the civil heart. we mean civil heart is considering others more than ourselves in a sensible way. the very moment diners walk into the restaurant from the steamy hot street must be expecting a chilling old drink together with a comfortable cool air condition in the restaurant. if this requirement isn't satisfactorily met, either the diner silently complains or just explicitly leave. this is not acceptable to the restaurant, right?

working in office is really damn boring. if the staff is getting dozy during the afternoon then no one will be working...this one will not be tolerated too, right?

in people walk into the shopping mall and discovered that it is as hot as outside, they definitely won't stay any longer. business is flowing to locations with lower temperatures. not good again, right?

i understand the very difficult in hong kong in applying the "fresh air" policy for the premises because no matter which place in hong kong there is no fresh air, especially in the central areas. everyone walking into the area is acting like moving filters help cleaning the city's air...at the cost of their own lives, of course.

but at least, do something about air circulation. trapped air in closed system does nothing good to no one.

no, i'm typing this not because i'm sleepy right now. and, no, it's also not because of i really want to leave the office now. and, of course no, i don't think the air is thick and dirty in the office now. and, i said no already, i don't need a fan to circulate the air in the office although it's cold enough already.

think i'd better bring compressed oxygen canisters (those for scuba diving) next week to work...my goodness...i'm going to faint...@_@

20 Oct 2005

Good morning everyone. This is the everyday direct report from the very busy office, reported by the staff that has almost nothing to do but seeing the others being very busy.

On the headlines:
The coffee machine's water tank ran out of water. People fed in panic. Tommy came and filled the tank. After hours of struggling he finally saved the whole office by refilling the coffee machine. There is no injury in this accident.

Later on, the water dispenser ran out of water too. The government had issued red alert to the public. Supermarkets are loaded with people trying to stock water at their home. Tommy came and appeased the crowd by using his amazing strength to refill the 18L water bottle. Peace and order is again restored.

In the washroom, the boss and Tommy met and had a meeting for 30 seconds. Both declared a closer co-operation in the future. The two leaders agreed to dispose their own WMD, also known as Weapon of Mass Destruction e.g. bad data.

The pantry is running out of teabags. Jasmine and Green tea today had their stock keep falling since the market started. Market speculation is that the share price of Po Lei and red tea is going to rise.

The research on the forth quarter Price Index show a slight rise of 0.5% with a relative increase in bakery products for 10%. It is believed to be caused by the introduction of the Pumpkin and Ham pastry from the Maxim's which is too delicious and inexpensive that Tommy had been purchasing in bulk every morning, pushing the price to a new high. Experts believe that the phenomenon will sustain for a period of time.

The business war of Wrigley's Airwaves (ginger orange flavour) and Wrigley's Doublemint is rising. While Tommy favours the clear flavour freshness of the mint, he also regards the ginger orange as refreshing and revitalizing. Recent studies show that the struggle on chewing gums will not diminished in the near future. Market is observing according to the slack price on the two chewing gums.

The weather:
The thick boredom hanging over Causeway Bay is expected to be staying for the coming few days, or at least as long as someone still working in a stupid post. Some drizzle of excitement will occasionally come during 1230 to 1400, cause unknown. Continuing boredom extends to the rest of the week. The Mind Blankness Index is high to dangerously high, government warns on public health, suggesting staying home instead of working on meaningless duties.

The Mark Six numbers are: 4,14,24,,44,94,104, and the extra number is 0.

And that's the news for this morning. Have a nice (and meaningful) day. Goodbye.

19 Oct 2005

Unbelievable.

The time now is 1449 in the afternoon. My stomach is filed with the lunch that doesn’t worth the price itself. Bloods are keep flowing to the stomach to help with the arduous digestion below the ever-growing belly of mine. My brain is starting to feel dehydrogenated. While at this moment I really need some excitement and at least some noise around me, the office is so damn quiet that you will complain the A/C outlet being too noisy. Even typing is too noisy, even there is only two people typing at the moment. Damn. I’m gonna sleep very soon.

I’ve never seen the office so empty in the middle of the day. Now my boss is on annual leave. The big boss is out in France having his training (never heard that a managing director needs “training” too). The admin manager is still on her maternity leave. The secretary is now outside nowhere to be found (guess she’s down there in the HR Dept).

S&P Dept originally has 4 persons. Now 2 left for China to deal business. One left for nowhere…yes, everyone here can disappear in nowhere. The remaining one is a newcomer, and he’s really the only one remained now can see what I’m doing in my computer. If ever he’s going to washroom, I’m really gonna play games on the internet…or at least, solitaire in windows.

The Dry Dept originally has 2 persons. One left for “hanging out” with the client and having expensive lunch with tem in Pacific Place (my goodness). 1 of the 2 dry brokers left. 1 of the 2 accountant ladies left. 1 of the 2 secretaries left. 3 of 3 of the bosses left.

The office is filled with silent joy.

And no matter how many people left in the office. There is only one man that will make the difference (to me).

My boss.

Of course this is very easy to think of, especially when you know that I am just sitting NEXT to my boss everyday. Yes, close and next to. We have no rooms in this office. Everyone is under the same roof (metaphorically and descriptively). So there are basically no secrets or gossips at all around here (and that’s why it’s so damn quiet). Whenever my boss just turn his neck for a little bit, he can see what I’m doing on my screen. He can see everything I am doing even with just a glimpse. Or maybe not even a glimpse, maybe he can sense it with the corner of his eyes.

Now that’s scary, right?

But the good news is, my boss don’t really care what I’m doing. He seldom checks my progress, if any. In fact, he didn’t lay down any rules on how or what to do with the database that I’m handling. There is always the good side and the down side. You can say you are so free to do whatever you like, or you can say you are so ignored that you almost question yourself are you really an employee.

A real DIY job, anyone?

18 Oct 2005

Last night my parents had ask me about my job again. They asked me whether you would really like to quit or not. I’m not so sure yet. I don’t think I will have any future with this job. And it’s boring anyway. But I don’t know where can I go if I quit this job. I don’t think there is any one else who will be paying me a satisfactory salary for a job that doesn’t really so stressful. This job is lazy and has nothing to do. And I’m receiving a small amount of salary. It’s really like of a retired life in here. Though my boss is just sitting next to me and can easily see what I’m doing, I still feel this job quite good. At least, I’m typing my diary now.

But leaving this job…the feeling is like leaving a greenhouse when you have been in there for quite a long time. Therefore I don’t know how to deal with the feelings that I am going to have when I leave here.

My father suggest me to go study a part-time master degree, taking the advantage of this very free and boring job. I know, but I’ve never thought of what else to study. I felt like I had wasted 3 years of time in GRM already. I really don’t want to make another wrong decision anymore.

Sometimes I ask myself. Did I really wasted that 3 years of time? Will I really be much more happy when I am in another study? Will I be more happy in another busy job? Will I be really more happy when I’m not working in a job that fits my character?

Wow.

Thousands of questions.

I recall my dad saying something to my mom, saying that she “won’t buy Mark Six that doesn’t win”

Explain next time.

14 Oct 2005

As some of you might aware, this diary is typed in English (of course, I don’t treat you all as nuts, unlike how my mom treats me). This reason is that this diary is being typed in my office while it’s still office hour and I should be working in front of the computer instead of typing diary. But today something never happened before really happened now. My boss left me and had his (believed to be) sick leave.

Not difficult to guess because his face doesn’t look good at all during the whole morning and it’s not difficult to guess that he’s already in sick. I just didn’t expect he will leave suddenly during the lunch without even telling me! His own “horse son” directly under him! Eh…I really don’t know what he’s thinking.

Anyway, here I am, in the office, in the afternoon, having nothing to do. I wish I can type Chinese diary but you know, I’m working in a Danish company. Everything here appears on the screen in every computers are all English. It’s really far too easy to see that you are doing something unrelated to the company when there is Chinese on your screen.

Not even write. Everything that I have written so far are also in English. So I can’t do much in Chinese. And even though my boss had left already there are still many people around that can see what is appearing on my screen. So above this diary is actually a decoy of a piece of e-mail that I used to send everyday to all the offices in our company (some kind of stupid announcement). To really avoid the others from seeing, I have to lower the size of display from 100% of the real document to 88%, which both Viola and I think it’s a very good zooming proportion for doing documents.

29 Sep 2005

so far so good
work is still BORING

12 Sep 2005

我知道有些朋友想知道我的近況
上班如何
工作如何
適應嗎？辛苦嗎？
等等...

由於工作的性質是, 基本上每一刻都盯著電腦的關係
回到家的時候已經極不想再開電腦
要知道 monitor 其實即是幾條光管
你試著緊緊的盯著家中的燈八九個小時就明白了

所以, 我由極多上網變了稀客
大家想見面的話想一道別來的經過
不如就多多約出來吧
反正日日番工的生活也枯燥得緊
多見面多說笑
命都長幾年

好了, 眼睛累了, 遲些再談

1 Sep 2005

阿溥的第一次

轉眼暑假就已經結束。阿溥終於都要面對現實, 踏上職場去送死, 將自己困於一個朝九晚六, 無日無天的樊籠之中...

尋晚唔係好夠訓,

(1/07 註：點解個日記會突然間停左...?)

19 aug 2005

今日本來諗住去九公游水, 都係算, 唔夠時間。拿拿聲番去公司幫阿媽做野算。

夜晚去阿 Wing 同 Sara Birthday Dinner gathering. 又遲到. 對唔住呀各位....>_<

去泰簡單度食, 無想像中咁好食。可能因為本身個天已經連日暴雨無停過, 我地仲要坐出面, 仲要成腳都濕晒, 仲要著住爬山鞋, 仲要shoes and socks都濕到「林」(第六聲) 晒...對腳係咁 up 住晒, 好辛苦, 好凍, 個身又濕....唉

個位又陰陰暗暗咁....個天又....唉

其實我諗個度d 野食真係 ok 的, 只可惜我無乜心情之餘, 又睇唔到自己食緊乜....所以....

我本來都好鐘意落大雨架

番到屋企見到所有窗台都滲水, 我間房尤其嚴重的時候, 就好想殺人
係 windowsill 位的 wallpaper, 可以甩出來的統統都甩晒出來。簡直係令人....ARRRRGGGHHH~~!!!!!!!!

停雨呀！你聽唔聽到呀！停呀~~~俾我d 窗台同 wall紙休息下啦唔該~~!!!!!!!

18 Aug 2005

乜都唔使理
你睇下個天氣就知 (1/07 註：係「暴雨」)
我出街想買定d 衫準備番工都唔得
到最後都只係買到一條西褲咁大把
仲要又係 G2000
就來正式番工, 都唔知點死
唉
唔想番工呀, 想放假呀

12 Aug 2005

唔明自己點解可以寫日記都咁無恆心
已經係 online 的日記來架喇
仲要無乜心機打

可能依家比起以前的日子過得快樂, 所以無咁多唔開心的野要周圍話俾人知。

對我來講的日記, 可能就只係用來記住一d 特別的事。無乜特別的, 可能都已經落選。

當然喇, 仲要睇下本少爺我係唔係有心情打字先得架。


一號風球珊瑚
大家以為會打到來, 點知都係同我一樣 - 「屎波」~~!

11 Aug 2005

七點鐘起身, 不得了, 我竟然起得到身喎。好野。雖知道我家陣每一日都係四點幾五點先訓然後一點幾兩點先起身架嘛。(呵呵呵...係咪好妒忌呢~~~呵呵呵~~~你地唔恨得咁多架喇~~~~)

之後就走落無乜人行的大街上面。我須要食個早餐, 但附近的餐廳都未開﹐吉之島都未開, 美食廣場都未﹐附近係無茶餐廳的。於是唯一的 choice 就係 M 記。 但係我估唔到 M 記真係得小貓三數隻。雖然話晒都只係得七點半﹐但係都唔使咁~~少人係嘛, 我記憶中的 M 記早上係好多人架喎。

搭過海巴到紅磡轉火車。天橋上面好~多~人~呀, 條橋好似就快塌咁。見到好多人係度派免費報紙﹐讀報的人有福了！既然睇落份份都差唔多﹐就會一份 am 730 睇下施永青有咩咁巴閉。Metro 唔使拿喇, 以前睇過好多次。頭條日報的外觀唔吸引, 更何況我使鬼睇咁多份來來去去差唔多的免費報紙咩？一份就夠。幾好睇喎 am 730。

「靜音車廂」？咩來架？我畢業前都好似未有的？真係好靜架？
(試搭三十分鐘之後) 挑！把鬼！完全唔覺得有寧捨靜過！

大埔落車, 走上 20C 綠 van, 走往大尾篤去。

其實今日係要去學一星的獨木舟﹐即係最最最初級的。一到場的時候就驚會遲到。到左喇, 又輪到「陌生環境下緊張症」發作。

死喇, 我唔記得帶 cap, 會唔會好曬呢？但係今日落雨喎。
死喇, 我唔係著 swim suit 添。會唔會曬到對手臂甩皮？好痛架喎
死喇, 我唔記得帶橡筋添, 一陣副眼鏡掉左落水咪搵唔番。
死喇, 頭先係大埔唔記得買麵包添。一陣 lunch 咪無野食？
死喇, 我唔記得帶for 落水的毛巾添？
死喇, 出面橫風橫雨, 起晒白頭浪咁, 會唔會俾d 流帶到出公海架？
呢樣死喇....個樣死喇....

到最後, 其實無乜問題。除左個教練好騎呢﹐又唔係教到d 乜野俾我之外, 其實 so far so good。尤其係臨走的時候突如其來了一場傾盤大雨﹐感覺好爽之餘﹐睇見成個海面都好似一塊好厚的﹐深綠色的布咁﹐下面有好多人係度慢慢咁郁佢。而雨打落海面的時候, 因為好大雨 and 好大粒雨, 所以打起好多 splash, 白茫茫一片﹐真係令人難忘。

番到屋企, 累到貼地。

而中午因為出過好一段時間的太陽﹐所以終於都係曬親。頭面頸手都宣佈失守﹐曬到紅 bok bok, 第二朝仲痛添！哎喲~~

Anyway, 係幾好玩的活動。如果可以一班朋友包起一個班的話, 就肯定會俾自己一丁友去學好玩到好多好多倍。

8 Aug 2005

尋晚因為俾嚇人的網頁嚇親, 呆左成晚都唔敢訓...無錯, 我就係咁細膽, 都唔知點解會咁樣...我講俾其他人聽佢地又唔信, 都唔知點解...痴線...

於是我就好慘又好眼訓咁坐係度等天光左先敢訓
可能你會覺得 on 居
但係我真係一合上眼就會見到得人驚的野
所以....完全唔敢關燈 / 合上眼。

於是今日順理成章咁訓到兩點先起身。一起身, 眼屎都未抺就睇報紙。係近來的習慣, 唔知點解。無乜野好睇, 無乜野追緊, 亦無乜野特別。可能係一個字：「八」。

之後就要執野走人。星期一係阿媽公司最 Q 忙的一日, 一定要四點左右番到去, 最遲喇當然, 所以嘛, 今個下午都係游唔成水的了。

執執下野, 又係因為八卦睇下舞台界猛人羅冠蘭的「香港直播」。佢好多野講, 而且有條不紊, 幾勁。呀, 係咪做得舞台的人都係會比較健談 (註：唔係「識講野」。「識講野」呢個 term 係香港通常都係有少少負面意思, 通常都似有或無咁暗示該人係講野轉彎抹角避重就輕)。因為我上次睇呀高志森又係咁, 嘩個肥佬一輪咀咁講, 把口唔停咁講, 但係講野又唔係無料 / 悶架喎, 所以我先咁諗。

又遲左出門口。

番到公司, 阿媽不在。咁就自己拿野來做啦當然, 發覺都無乜野交低, 可能星期一真係太多會要開太多其他野要做, 連 clerical work 都無時間寫低俾我。我慢條斯理咁做左幾樣之後, 想走的時候, 佢就番來。成個節奏即時急速左好多倍, 佢 bang bang 聲咁俾野我做, 我又 boom boom 聲咁跑來跑去仆倒咁做, 唔使十五分鐘, 就做多左好多野 (証明老世唔係度伙記唔做野係千古不變的定律)。但唔知做乜, 佢就係出現左個十五分鐘, 之後我一擰轉頭, 佢就走左。神龍。

六點幾, 做得果兩個零三個鐘野就想走。呢排真係越做越頹。

去打機, 又係果幾味。自己都打到厭。

去食野, 又係果幾味街邊野食, 有少少食到厭。

去游水, 又係九龍公園, 都還好, 夠大, 九蚊好似好抵咁。不過唔明點解夜場都咁~~~多人。下午個太陽咁靚就話者。Dinner time 都咁多人, 為乜呢？

即係咁, 你游都無所謂, 唔好霸住條快線嘛。你地霸都無所謂, 唔好咁多人呀, 一條線塞咁多人, 玩韻律泳咩。你地塞我都忍, 可唔可以唔好自把自為呢？人地話到明係左上右落, 乜得你班阿姐咁 Q 煩係到要右上左落。我知我識得一路游一路扭波咁扭開你地向前游, 都唔使咁考我d 腰力架。仲有, 我唔係話自己識游水就睇低其他人, 但係既然九公都出 post 叫大家「學會游泳, 並了解自己的泳術」, 乜解救你地唔去「了解」下的呢？雖知道「快線」的「快」字唔係真係高速公路咁的快的意思, 但起碼唔好釀成阻塞先啦。唔止我架, 我見其他的善泳者都好無奈。唉。

游下水, 浸下水, 游下, 浸下咁, 到左九點, 好多人都散去, 租用的 lanes 都放番兩條出來, 當堂鬆動晒！！開心, 從來未見過九公咁少人的！立即去馬！......但係已經有心無力。咁少人係打 turn 的好時機...都無心機。

趁少人玩番個背泳先。嘩, 原來又幾好玩架喎！不過好累....游左廿五已經投降, 轉番身來個「阿伯蛙」過埋對面算。之後餘興未盡, 來一個背 start....簡直就係將一大片豬肉狠狠咁 Daat 落水 - 不知 daat 到個背脊幾痛~~~無計, 無學過, 無師扮自通, 當然係啞子吃黃蓮。

真係無乜人喎, 來挑戰極限 - 蝶式！！
即係咁...蝶呢, 就係要隻手向前撲, 然後撥水, 再出水向前撲。咁係完全不自量力的阿溥做出來的時候, 就係好猛力咁 (佢以為) 係水底划一野, 再飛出水面向前力撲。Idealistically should be like that.

現實版係：有條傻仔撥完水後背部肌肉唔夠力, 又無學過蝶式, 對手又無力, 條腰又唔識配合, 於是對手上唔番來, 情況 embarrasing (唔記得中文點寫), 唯有臨時臨急踢下對腳....一時間, 水中出現了一隻外星怪物進行某種極似叫救命的神秘儀式, 嚇得池中人人雞飛狗走。

夠瘀未？

Anyway, 我鐘意泳池無乜人。沖涼都唔使排隊。

之後同毛毛兩個人食左一間上樓印度餐廳。膽粗粗試下, 一入門口, 見到勁多印度定尼泊爾定泰國定唔知邊個國家的人, 但係膚色唔深的, 係度開 birthday party. 當然係唱緊 Happy Birthday. 全間餐廳都無佢地以外的國籍的人。我登時想打退堂 drum. 不過阿 waitress 姐姐好 nice 咁帶左我地去一個 window 位, 望街景, 幾得意。然後睇下佢地又老又中又小朋友咁玩得好開心, 亦無咩騎呢感覺了。諗都費事, 一於就 set dinner, 反正都唔知食乜野。

先來印度薄脆。幾好。個 sauce 太辣, not for me.
之後鐵板 (熱的, 滋滋聲的) 香料雞。似咖哩 (定沙嗲？唔記得)。香料多, 幾好食, 但太辣, (又)唔岩我。不過平心而論係香的, 幾好吃的, 只係我個人食唔到辣。
之後 Garlic 炒椰菜。全晚最似中國菜的一道。我不嬲都係Garlic 的 fans, 而佢又似中國菜, 所以食得最多。
咖哩雞, 唔辣的。但就係因為唔辣, 所以應該香料落得唔多, 所以唔香。而且好~~溜(第六聲), 食多幾啖都填滿個胃。所以少食。
白飯同 Nan Bread. 無乜特別, 可以用來送咖喱。
Mango Lassi. 我飲的, 印度特色飲品。似奶昔, 口感 creamy, 幾好。飲到完餐時都無話變味變酸。
甜品係 surprise: 叫做 Gulan Julab...好似係咁卦, 係炸奶粉球喎。熱的, 幾好食。 Golf 咁大粒, 但一人一粒已經係太多。太溜。
140 蚊兩人, 仲不停有現場的小朋友過來撩我地玩, 仲有不停的印度勁歌播放, 仲有現場真人一家大小係餐廳中間興起就跳印度歌舞, 值回票價。

呀係！
之前因為~~~終於~~~試左久仰大名的「澳洲牛奶公司」的炒蛋多士同埋凍奶茶, 所以胃口減少。炒蛋果然係好味, 多士果然係大塊, 凍奶茶果然係好好好好好好好好好飲。

不過, 因為睇過太多次其他人讚到天上有地下無的嘉許, 所以 expectation 太高, 所以第一下食落其實覺得無乜特別。不過 overall speaking 係 GOOOOOOD 的。

p.s. 打下打下, 講下又多d 講下又多d 咁, 篇日記又攪到咁鬼長的....又會....點解我一係唔打日記一打就咁多..... O____o

30 Jul 2005

開心
今日一早就起左身 (11am , 真係好早)
就係為左同大同唱 K。呢班大同就唔話得囉, 計埋我一共四個人, 大家都係屬於 FYP 周貴虎口倖存劫後餘生大難不死組的我, 阿 Wing, Vincent, 同埋一d 倖存成份都無的阿基。

我地一班可憐的醜小鴨, 終日俾果隻又肥又醜, 明明係海象係度扮鴨(男人老狗扮鴨)的周貴娘(讀第一聲陰平聲, 中大語精教的, 呵~), 口頭上工作上態度上眼神上E-mail 上電話上不停地咁折磨, 將我地四隻醜小鴨的自尊同人性都踩都谷底的井底個底咁低。我地幾個可憐的醜小鴨, 日間被周魔鞭打過後, 夜裡只能夠偷偷地躲在一角, 連講佢的壞話都唔敢, 就好似 Harry Potter 裡面的 Voldemort 或者係 Lord of the Rnigs 裡面的 Dark Lord Sauron 一樣 - "You Know Who".

幾許風雨, 呢幾隻醜小鴨終於歷盡多時的辛酸, 苦劫, 磨難, 終於能夠逃出周貴娘(都話陰平聲咯)的魔掌, 變成三隻又白又漂亮又自信又有智慧又有美貌又有才華又高貴又有性格又有抱負又有未來的天鵝喇~~~

而剩番個隻, 因為夏天的太陽好吸引, 而佢本身太懶唔做運動的關係, 變左一隻好~~肥美的燒鵝。

你話死唔死。

Anyway, 大家都係共過患難的朋友, 係危急的時候大家都幫過大家手, 你幫我我幫你都數唔清, 所以今次甩難之後大家都好 friend 咁一齊去唱番次 K 開心下。

是日去左尖東的 Neway CEO, 好~~~大間房, 痴線架, 四個人間房大到好似十人大房咁, 十個 Vincent 手拖手先圍得晒呀。

之後夜晚同 Carmen Rose Zia Claudia Asa 一行六人去左太古城食野。全程都有旁述員詩雅提醒各位太古城對佢呢位住係大埔的千金來講係有幾咁山卡啦咁遠, 佢搭車來用左幾多光陰同幾多銀兩...謹此致謝。

到最後, 因為 peak hour 的關係, 所有係人食的餐廳都已經爆滿晒人, 我地唯有挨下貴, 去冰場左近的 EAT 食美國餐。幾好食喎。不過貴左些少。

是日陳溥溥很開心。

27 Jul 2005

頂！
有無野呀！
好唔見壞唔見就就唔見左個銀包！
仲有我咁~~~ 秋 keys!!!!
好煩呀

13 Jul 2005

各位~~~~~~~

我已經「的」起心肝﹐趁我仲放緊假的時候﹐係我仲有好多青春可以浪費的時候﹐我就的起個心肝將我偉大的台灣遊記用電腦打番出來！！！

係咪好偉大呢！

但係呢...因為我個陣寫遊記, 通常都係坐車或者係百忙之中用筆求其「了」幾個字落去記低重點﹐好多事都用英文來記低會快好多﹐於是呢﹐就有好多資料零碎 / 含糊其辭﹐仲有﹐就係好可能會斷斷續續﹐要我打的時候用自己的 memory 配合番先得。所以, 大家要忍讓忍讓。

好！
因為台灣的 Trip 係係 2004 年 12 月 24 日作為第一日的, 咁所以呢, 我會特登將所有的台灣遊記 *特登 * 放番係 2004 年 12 月 24 日。

如果大家有興趣睇番小弟的台灣遊記, 請移玉步至 2004 年 12 月 24 日作開始。

多謝各位捧場！！！

(1/ 2007 註：算吧啦你....)

12 Jul 2005

嘩
乜原來我咁耐無打過日記架喇
咁又好似係, 睇番上個日記竟然係差唔多兩個禮拜前, 我自己都唔係好相信
仲覺得好似係不久之前發生的咁

今日最大件事咪就係去馬士基度 Second Interview 囉。準備得唔夠好就當然架喇, 仲要係幾乎遲到﹐要飛的去都只係剛剛好趕得切, 好險。(仲好貴！)

老實講我覺得份工唔係話好好但係我好想得到
一來大公司
二來 direclty under 鬼佬老世
三來係銅鑼灣番工 (同長洲係天淵之別)

不過都有問題
一來我唔係有耐性的人
二來我唔係一個好 organized 的人
三來我唔係一個對 details 好敏感的人
四來我唔係一個愛整理 (tidy) 野的人

咁.....就係咁
唔理
要左先
佢真係請左我先算
到時睇下係邊一家誤上賊船~~~~
hahhaha
(1/2007 註：我依家坐正係呢個 office, 可以大大聲咁話番俾一年幾前的你聽：「係你自己誤上賊船囉﹐懵炳！」)

29 Jun 2005

尋日去左搵 Vincent 同 基基 同 Carmen 玩

佢地做野我就踩單車, 之後游水水
好開心

但係想聽一d 夏日d 的歌
唔知邊度會有呢？
今年有咩比較夏日 feel 的歌呢？

唔該唔好講 Twins 的乜鬼野森巴皇后, 我諗起都 "......."

17 Jun 2005

可以話完全好番晒囉

本來個傷口仲係食親凍野, 飲親凍野就痛到飛起, 衣家可能因為d 牙肉生番厚左, 可以抵得住d 凍野的刺激, 所以都係微微痛。係可望的將來都應該會好番好多

都怪自己唔做義工
唔做暑期工
唔多進修增值自己
唔做多d 野
唔見到d 世面

好喇, 衣家要搵工, 填親份份工的 form 都係交白卷
明眼人一睇就知呢個係頹廢學生
連工作經驗都夠膽死 ZERO 的
你可以話我有型格
可以話我有膽色
更絕對可以話我有排受
哈...哈哈

8 Jun 2005

我好番喇
可以正常咁食野喇
雖然間唔中個傷口都會因為飲太凍的飲品而覺痛
但 overall 都係好 OK
多謝大家關心

25 May 2005

情況依然係無乜改善

唔食止痛藥的話就會痛得好 agitating

所以都係每幾個鐘頭就食一塊止痛餅落去吊命

好多謝 Yolan 的好心建議

佢話只要用溫水開 salt 含係口就會好好多

果然係有用

希望快d 好

全日都係屋企都做隱蔽青年

打機食粥電視打機

好悶第三日

都係咁樣痛落去

決定唔可以太過頹廢

本來已經好頹廢, 養病呢個藉口就更架令我覺得自己好頹廢坐食山崩

所以我衰衰地都幫阿媽打左少少野

但係由於係好簡單的關係, 我好快就攪掂晒

於是又無野做坐係度痛

於是我就聽 Rose 介紹上左 Jobs DB 個度搵工

攪左一大輪的手續之後, 都係攪唔到份 resume complete

於是都係唔可以立即就可以 apply jobs

攪左咁耐, 都係睇左好多好多的工, 但係就好多好多都唔岩心水, 激死人


夜晚, 我決定出一出街散散心
屈左係屋企咁多日真係一d 都唔好受
我見自己個咀好番少少就立即出街
點知....盡興一輪之後番到來屋企個傷口就痛到不得了
我明明已經無乜講野架喇
點解仲會咁樣架
好痛呀大佬﹐明明我不久之前先食過止痛藥....莫非止痛藥的藥力越來越短？呀....
好痛呀.....

24 May 2005

情況依然係無乜改善

唔食止痛藥的話就會痛得好 agitating

所以都係每幾個鐘頭就食一塊止痛餅落去吊命

好多謝 Yolan 的好心建議

佢話只要用溫水開 salt 含係口就會好好多

果然係有用

希望快d 好

全日都係屋企都做隱蔽青年

打機食粥電視打機

好悶

23 May 2005

話說﹐我有隻智慧齒係打橫生的。又話說﹐醫生話要我剝左個隻智慧齒﹐但係因為牙齒係會不停咁生的﹐所以剝左一隻就一定要剝埋上面個一隻﹐如果唔係就會越生越長好似老鼠咁。於是我就要排期剝牙。又話說﹐我的牙因為大部份都係牙肉入面﹐所以要割開d 牙肉先可以拿到隻牙出來﹐所以要做一個小手術。咁醫生問我你怕唔怕, 我話怕到震, 佢就提議如果係咁就不如做一個局部麻醉﹐咁就可以一覺訓醒隻牙已經剝左。好, 信你。

話咁快就到左要剝牙個一日喇。之前的星期日晚, 即係尋晚﹐我已經特登走去食一餐好的。到底有幾好呢？其實都幾豪下。我先去連城廣場的 Domon 食一個便當﹐普普通通咁喇。然後呢﹐就果然係貴夾唔飽﹐於是好心的阿正就陪我去和民再食過。今次就 happy 喇﹐食左好多野, 有兩樣野係一定一定要 recommend 俾大家的, 仲要係 highly recommend.

第一樣就係牛油焗帶子。對於一個鐘意焗, 蒜蓉, 牛油, 帶子, 香味, 同埋油的人來講﹐呢一味簡直係 GOOOOOOD. 我係無乜期望的情況之下將呢舊帶子放左入口之後﹐佢竟然將我的味蕾一下子間帶到了上天堂！嘩~~~~

第二樣係朱古力軟心蛋糕。熱的古古力蛋糕﹐有凍的Vanilla ice-cream 陪襯；硬的古古力蛋糕表面﹐有軟的古古力漿係入要陪襯；一啖凍的白色雪糕﹐一啖熱的古古力漿﹐一啖軟綿綿的 cream, 一啖硬硬地的古古力蛋糕……啊……

仲有﹐唔係所有寫左「人氣」的食物都咁好食﹐「廣島燒餅」就係一個好例子。兩個字：「徙錢」

正所謂一念天堂﹐一念地獄。好開心咁食完我最後的晚餐之後﹐我就番屋企接受現實﹐等待被屠宰。

今朝一早我就起左身去醫院﹐心情平靜。然後我走左入去病房﹐要換衫。係一片好迷惘的情況之下我就走左去換衫。然後出番來係度呆坐﹐一路我都淨係識得左望望右望望咁。又唔敢做其他野, 又唔知要做乜野, 又唔知要等幾耐, 又唔知個過程會點﹐又唔知幾時先到我﹐又唔知可以做得d 乜……

係一片迷惘之中﹐醫生來了。原來呢間房咁多個麻甩佬都係來做割牙的。都好, 有人陪下我, 雖然咁多人都係做同一樣的手術令我感覺到呢度有d 似屠場……+___+

醫生解釋完個手術我聽之後我就簽左一份生死約﹐之後我就真係覺得好無聊但係又有少少緊張﹐於是就走左去訓覺。話晒我都訓得咁少﹐當然係一倒頭便睡著。

一個小時後﹐睡得正好﹐有個醫生突然係我床尾出現。

「可以入手術室架喇。」

「轟隆~~~!」背後突然響起一聲巨大的雷響。唔係呀嘛！真係到我喇！我未訓醒呀, 未有心理準備好呀, 喂, 唔好推我入去呀, 喂, 喂~~~

就係咁, 我坐左係架輪椅上面俾推到手術室裡面。呢度真係好凍好凍﹐我已經好驚, 仲要咁凍﹐又驚又凍有乜好做？梗係打冷震啦﹐狂震個隻。

護士repeat 左幾次我個名同埋我要做的手術俾我聽, 我心諗﹐到底佢地係為謹慎起見, 定係以前 careless 得滯推錯病人入錯手術室劏錯人…? 嘩~~~唔好諗唔好諗…

之後最最得人驚的時來了。打一隻用來輸入麻醉劑的管入去血管入面﹐我以前睇過本書好好笑的﹐叫做「我是實習醫生」﹐佢好似講過話呢種叫做「點滴」(Drip)。 我諗都係。以前我英國來香港的表哥水土不服入左醫院﹐我都見到佢左手手背插左一隻管狀物體。我同佢走的時候親眼兼近距離睇見醫生幫佢拿番出來的時候的情況。支管係皮膚下面點樣好似一條大蟲咁滑過﹐血管點樣立刻變形﹐我表哥的表情係何其地痛苦……所有所有, 我都歷歷在目。此刻竟然突然間到我！叫我怎能不驚。

我依然記得好清楚﹐佢地要拿左我隻左手﹐然後抹酒精﹐然後超出力咁「連」實我手臂…跟住就feel 到手背有一度劇痛。我簡直係依家都仲可以想像番出有幾痛。手背已經好少肉﹐又多血管﹐仲要打橫咁插支針落去﹐傻架？！

我已經好痛﹐個人又好驚, 我本身又好怕痛, 個地方又凍, 個環境又得人驚, 仲要佢地攪極都未攪完﹐插左支針入去我手背之後仲要chok 來 chok 去, 天呀﹐我真係成個人都拉到衡晒, 差d 就精神崩潰。

誰知惡夢未了。佢地話我的手背的血管有太多 valves, 所以頂住晒, 要再來過。我聽見呢個消息之後已經想死﹐點做醫生架你地！？好彩跟住佢話要係手臂插唔係手背。喂, 手臂同手背喎﹐根本不可同日而喻。到佢地又好大力咁楂我手臂谷完血之後, 我已經好似手臂撞親咁痛 – 打左入去了。

你睇！差幾遠！一早就應該打入手臂啦！攪乜鬼野手背者！無聊！痛到我死！手臂肥騰騰咁多肥膏 byebye肉你唔打, 係要打落去d奀挑鬼命的手背！痴線架！我都忍唔住出口怨佢地「唉早知手臂無咁痛你地就應該一早打手臂啦﹐攪到我咁鬼痛！」

好快﹐就推左入手術室正室。我話我真係好凍好凍﹐佢就俾左一塊好似新鮮焗完的被俾我蓋左…好暖好暖…

…終於都暖番晒…好暖好暖…我望住天花皮上面的手術燈…一盞, 兩盞, 三盞…

……

……好暖……

之後, 我只係記得閃過一個 moment, 係有幾個醫生的頭, 個個都望住我, 應該係做緊手術的時候吧。然後又睡著了。

……..


晒番的時候, 我已經係番病床上面﹐頭先的一切都好似係發左場夢咁。

當然﹐之後的先係惡夢。係訓下又醒下的情況之下, 我終於都決定起身走人。唔想留係度。想番屋企。想食野﹐想飲水。我已經十幾個鐘頭無食過野無飲過水。好辛苦。好想好好咁食番一d 可以飽肚的野……雖然我知我個口咁痛根本就無可能。但係我對打機同雀友打麻雀一樣, 認為係能醫百病的﹐所以我都一心希望我可以番到屋企之後開開心心咁打機忘記口裡面仲不停咁流緊血的傷口有幾痛。

係等緊拿藥的時候我個口都仲流緊血﹐不停個隻﹐仲要混合埋口水一齊, 痛到飛起。時間一分一秒咁過去﹐麻醉藥的效力亦都係度一點一滴咁消失﹐我開始覺得越來越痛﹐尤其係到後來番到屋企的時候﹐簡直係痛不欲生。

我想飲水都唔係好飲到﹐飲水的時候個傷口就特別痛﹐莫講話食野﹐但係因為實在係太肚餓﹐當時我肚餓到連飯咁大粒咁硬都想就咁唔理三七廿一吞落去…到最後我阿媽拿拿聲幫我叮一個叮叮粥﹐我淨係食d 粥食唔到d料。但係已經係好好味﹐佢本身已經係好好味﹐係我餓左十幾個鐘頭之後就更加覺得好好味。

到後來真係好痛好痛, 我又無食野咁耐﹐但身體都無食物去燃燒﹐個人開始變得好凍。大熱天時我都可以著衫…平時我係屋企唔著衫都出晒汗架。我著左衫都覺得寒, 係寒, 從心而發的寒。當時我實在係痛得好緊要, 我只能夠躺在床上悲傷地等止痛藥的藥力發作…一面不停地後悔 「why me?」點解個天要我隻牙好生唔生打橫生？

最痛無過於今次。上次係湯石打波拗柴都係好痛, 但係痛得可以忍受得到。今次﹐真係痛得不得了, 而且是不停地痛, 沒有一刻是不痛的, 亦真真正正地痛得我淚水都忍不住了。每一刻我都感覺到口裡面好像是被人用鋸刀慢慢地剖開﹐牙痛得連頭都痛了, 好像是孫悟空的金鋼圈一樣緊緊地掐住。

在劇痛和流血中睡著。我醒來的時候已是天黑﹐家人都吃過晚飯了。最疼愛我的媽媽就因為陪伴了我一整天沒有時間工作, 晚飯都沒有吃就外出去工作。苦了她。

晚上﹐我吃過一些不太稀的粥。吃過百福的燉奶。感覺好了一點點。

但願自己早日康復。唔好有***任何的***手尾。

9 May 2005

我真係好 lost
好迷惘
唔知自己可以點
原來太多 choices 都係一個問題

太多條路放係自己面前
反而等於 no choice
我真係唔想再走錯路, 行錯步
我已經入左文科, 行錯第一步
我已經入左 GRM , 行錯第二步

我相信自己有才能
但係唔知邊方面

我相信自己有才能
但唔想再行錯第三步而被自己的錯誤而埋没
我唔想
我唔要

8 May 2005

新聞 (舊聞?)


林詩雅五月十一日回來香港

Ms. So 六月九至八月四回來香港做 thesis

多謝各位收看

27 Apr 2005

超開心
用左四個字左右的時間去 present
比起阿基的一小時三十分鐘
阿 Vincent 的一小時十五分鐘
同阿 Wing 的一小時
我實在係賺左
原因：老世趕住走
實在要多謝阿 Wing, Vincent and KK
多謝你地呀！！
無你地 pre 得咁精彩咁長, 我一定挨唔過今日架！
你地係我最好最好的 groupmates!!! Love ya all~

15 Apr 2005

聽聽下 Onda Cero
竟然聽到有廣東話, 好神奇
細聽之下, 原來係講緊香港的人口問題
佢地話好諷刺, 中國就太多人, 香港就叫人生多d
但其實都係個惡性循環...出生多左的小朋友遲早都會變成老人家, 難道就要再多d 小朋友來 support 佢地...?
well, 竟然係由一個西班牙的電台來報導。

14 Apr 2005

好野 FYP Deadline 延期
開心
不過newsgroup 好多 debates
我覺得無必要囉, 無謂

做好, 咪交囉, 做唔好, 咪改囉, 時間 allocate 得唔好唔忿氣, 咪嘈囉, 任你嘈
如果我就來做完先知改, 我都會唔忿氣, 但一定唔會蠢到係咁係度投訴, 因為時間賺左係我的. 之前係可能 sacrifice 左好多野, 但唔改都改左 deadline, 唯有利用時間再執靚份野先交。再係度怨這怨那, 時間過左去不回頭, 連「既然多左時間就再執靚佢先交」的機會都無岩, 就真係 waste air.

阿瑪話過
人人都做緊的錯事依然係錯事, 唔會變成正確的事
但人人都唔做的正確事, 就算無人做緊佢依然係一件正確的事

無錯, 佢講得好岩, 我同意
不過唔係今次

30 Mar 2005

東坪洲大感冒之後, 開心左幾日
之後....

復活節的時候竟然又令野, 今次係感冒菌入腸, 飲乜食乜都嘔番出來, 有夠難受的
最難受, 都莫過於臨出發的時候唔能夠跟屋企人一齊去旅行, 呢樣野, 真係好唔開心下

夠鐘休息....

15 Mar 2005

東坪洲後, 超級大感冒, 超級大辛苦
多謝 Yolanda 於危急時相助, 多謝 Gary 借出救命必利痛
多謝毛毛送我食物 and 回家
但係我仲未病好
好辛苦

28 Feb 2005

寫日記寫日記寫日記寫日記寫日記寫日記寫日記寫日記

11 Feb 2005

初三赤口, 會吵架, 不宜拜年。

為甚麼呢？因為傳統上的春節﹐大家都要很早就開始準備﹐由籌備到大年初一拜年到初二都會很辛苦﹐所以人都會暴躁﹐所以要休息。

我就無乜點準備, 但係個人都好躁﹐可能因為太煩的關係。

支持開我的日記的朋友﹐有點兒對唔住﹐因為家陣唔多得閒打日記。

夠鐘休息。再見。

4 Feb 2005

點解我會咁耐都唔打日記？
莫非我仲係度打緊機？大家都估錯
係因為我部機死左

經過多日多夜的搶修之後
我部機終於都好番晒喇
一天都光晒。
好野

22 Jan 2005

All I Ask Of You by Cliff Richard and Sarah Brightman

No more talk of darkness, forget these wide-eyed fears.
I'm here, nothing can harm you.
My words will warm and calm you.

Let me be your freedom, let daylight dry your tears.
I'm here with you, beside you, to guard you and to guide you.

Say you love me every waking moment, turn my head with talk of summertime.
Say you need me with you now and always.
Promise me that all you say is true.
That's all I ask of you.

Let me be your shelter, let me be your light.
You're safe. No-one will find you, your fears are far behind you.

All I want is freedom, a world with no more night.
And you, always beside me, to hold me and to hide me.

Then say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime.
Let me lead you from you solitude.
Say you need me with you here, beside you.
Anywhere you go let me go too.
Christine, that's all I ask of you.

Say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime.
Say the word and I will follow you.
Share each day with me, each night, each morning.
Say you love me ......
...... you know I do.

Love me that's all I ask of you.

Anywhere you go let me go too.
Love me that's all I ask of you.

15 Jan 2005

老實講我有少少怕走左今日個 FYP Thesis Workshop
不過由於我真係一億個眼訓的關係所以我真係起唔到身上堂
而且據我記得上一次我上堂的時候我真係唔記得佢講過乜野
我都唔記得佢講過乜野重要的野同埋有乜野 key points
到頭來我都係要係份 notes 度睇先知道點樣寫一份 Research Proposal / Literature Review 先係岩的
所以到頭來我都係覺得我自己一個人睇番佢的 notes 似乎仲實際
所以...我一來上唔到二來起唔到身三來真係唔想上

我寧願份 thesis 差少少

不過當我醒晒的時候我又係度諗
會唔會因為咁樣所以我老世俾低左一個 grade 我呢？
會唔會我本來係一個好好的 grade 但係因為咁樣無上一堂所以降左我一個 grade 呢？

如果係咁樣的話咁就真係大檸樂囉!!!

千祈千祈要希望老世做事唔好咁衝動呀。

講番今晚, 今晚係一片混亂之下, 我無機會去到第二場。要推遲好多先得。
我地一班飯團人就去左 Fat Angelo's.....隔離個間百里鮮食任食火鍋。老實講, 野食都算ok 的, 不過唔知點解我總係覺得第一火鍋好似好少少, 可能因為佢的飲品好飲好多同埋佢的豉油有炸蒜片食

不過都係廢 points, not the main points.

夜了, 眼訓, 聽日仲要補我唯一的習。再見.

11 Jan 2005

老實講
番左來咁多日, 我真係好想寫番個台灣遊記
唔想 再 好似絲路咁樣, 話寫話寫, 點知睇番份遊記完全唔知自己寫乜野...

...因為全部都係 short phrases and codes....=___=

但係點解我今次仲未開始寫呢？
因為....我打緊機
好好玩的遊戲
又關 Lord of the Rings 事
叫做 Battle for Middle Earth

係類似 Starcraft / Warcraft 咁樣的即時戰略 game
好玩
不過多限制, 如果少d 將會好好多

最好玩係用 peasants...唔知點解我最出乎意料地勁的 units 係本來淨係識得耕田的 peasants
衣家...佢地不知幾猛, 一個抽十個都綽綽有餘...
...
...簡直係一批流氓...

=____=

3 Jan 2005

回來香港幾天了
都沒有寫日記
原因都不外乎是沒有時間
料不到回到香港後的日子一點都不輕鬆
看來台灣的遊記
會變成絲路的遊記一樣
沒有了下文

但, 我真的很想成功一次
希望這一次我不會再半途而廢吧！

(1/2007 註：等兩年後的我來答你啦。答案係：你的而且確係半途而廢呀﹐廢柴！)